I know you're bound to leave, I know you're bound to forget about me.
If you stay please know that my mind changes drastically and goes from being my best friend to my best enemy.
My thoughts eat away at just about everything I believe in.
I'm sorry that I sometimes go off the deep end and that I occasionally get sad for no reason.
But if you plan to leave, I'll understand cause not many stay with me anyway.
They get tired of my sadness that waves over me like clouds when it's ready to storm
They get tired of my neediness and tired of my yearn for reassurance of if they really want me around.
I'll understand if you do not want to stay, for the past few years I haven't really wanted much to do with me anyway.
I bite onto small hopes of people staying but I am usually let down and I am left with their ghost, memories of how many times I told them how much they meant to me but they left.
I'm sorry for those who may feel stuck and I'm sorry for those who left, I'm truly trying my best.
But those who are staying and keeping me strong when things feel wrong, you hold the biggest place in my heart and I swear I don't ever want us to part.
I'm trying to not lose myself as well cause I'm the one who gives myself the most hell, me and my mind we don't always have the best time.
These poems usually have a happier ending but I'm not sure how I can end this happily cause I am not too pleased with parts of me.
I'm a work in progress.
I'm an unfinished piece.
I am working on a better me.
