Im sitting here watching tv eating a bowl of weaties. I saw that Adventure Time is on, and yeah im only 18 and married but dont get me wrong. I still LOVE cartoons. During the begging of the show I hear Drue'x come down the steps.
" Hey babe!" He said while sitting next to me kissing me on the cheek. Acting all handy dandy like he just didnt threatned to beat me brutally every time he'll see me in the house last night if I try leave him.
" Hi" I simply said fake smiling and turned my attention back to the TV.
"Whats wrong?" IS HE SERIOUS?!?!
"Nothing, just didnt get enough sleep last night" Lying my ass off.
"Why are you lying? I know your upset because of last night. im sorry I abuse you. sometimes I just feel like you dont listen to me. And if you leave me, I dont know what I would do with my life" He said staring at me the whole time.
Well, if you really loved someone. why would u want to see them in pain?
"Well, Drue'x if you really loved me I feel like you wouldnt want to se me in pain, specially if your the.reason!!! " I said half yelled/talk. I dont know what made me do that.
Soon enough I felt a sharp pain on my cheek sending my head to go sideways.
"I DONT KNOW WHO YOU THINK YOUR TALKING TO, BUT YOU BETTER FIX YOURSELF. BEFORE.I.FIX IT FOR YOU!! DO YOU WANT ME TO GRAB THE BELT??!!? "
I shook my head no as hot tears fall down my cheeks.
"Listen" He said calmed down. "Baby, im sorry I hit you, I-i just cant help it. just dont y-yell. I'll take you shopping today. Would you like that?" He said kissing the tears off my cheeks, touching all over me, then leaning his forehead on mine. Thats the stuff he does that drives me crazy and crave more of him. Its like I forgot that he just put his hands on me. Thats why im too weak to leave him...
" S-sure"- I replied smiling.
He smiled.
"Go get dressed beautiful"
,As im walking up the steps im thinking, If hes so abusive and bipolar, what if we actually, have ..kids? Or what of I can be pregnant when we decide to go on our honeymoon next week and I finally loose my Virginity.
I cant leave him. I have no choice. im scared, terrified. What if he finds me and hurts me again? I have nowhere.to ho but a hotel and he can spot all of them.Did I mention he also just pit cameras outside so I dont leave without his " permission" ?
But I cant keep living like this.I want to have kids, but in a safer environment not with an abusive father.
I know on our honeymoon, Were GOING to make love. All he ever wanted is kids. I need him like he needs me.
Maybe when I get pregnant I can leave him. Atlease I'll have something thats a part of him that I'll love. A son or daughter.
Im very Indecisive right now. What should I do?
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My Abusive Husband/ Resolute
Teen Fiction" I love her, but she just doesn't listen. There's always gonna be consequences to her actions " - Drew. ........ Sequal: Maybe our love really wasn't ment to be . Maybe I really need to let Drew go " ~ Halo. " I will do anything, and everything t...
