nevermore ( rewriting )

holden

x just holden x

   the people who started hanging out because of your death never really knew each other, and still don't brian. so, for you, i am on a mission to figure them out.

    i'm starting with your best friend, and the last person will be baker. it'll be tough, but for you, for you i'll do it.

     coincidentally, i ran into him in the hallway today.

      his books tumbled out of his arms, falling all over the cold floor. i immediately bent down to pick them up, muttering sorry the whole time. i didn't realize it was jesse until i was handing him the books. he had his glasses on this time, and his hair looked more wild than ever. his sweater was in mint condition, no wrinkles, no stains, nothing. clean to the teeth. he was that kind of guy.

      "jesse.. hey." i said uncertainly.

      "holden? oh, hey. s-, sorry. i was thinking, i-,"

       "jesse, it's fine." i smiled at him, not moving. he was first on the list, what a good time to get started.

       "um, so, what's your next class?" he asks awkwardly, trying to avoid looking at me. yeah, that kind of guy.

        "pre-calculus. what about you?" i replied, looking up at his tall frame.

        "this might be hard to believe, but we have the same class." he smiled gingerly, looking down at me.

         "i don't blame you." i said suddenly. well, shit. i didn't mean to say that.. now.

         "for what?" jesse asked nervously. he must know. he's smart, he knows.

         "never mind. it doesn't ma-,"

         "yeah, holden, it does. i know what you're talking about, and i appreciate it, but it's not taken lightly. thanks for being so considerate. have a good time in calculus." jesse said curtly, using his long legs to speed ahead of me. i sighed, i wanted to yell back at him, but i knew that only gave him reason to outsmart me.

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     dedicated to XBrokenAndInsecureX because all the support c: