Emotions. (A Collection of Poems)

"Emotions. Suck."

"My heart yearns for something I will not get."

That is often the thought on my mind when you're near.

And this is when I begin to fret.

Whenever we talk, you cause my pulse to jump,

Tornadoes in my stomach.

That reaction you get when you shake a soda bottle up,

Where the contents want to spill out.

Those are like my words for you,

I so desperately want to shout.

Just like that bottle, my words spilled over the edge,

Letting you know my emotions.

Secretly, I wanted to throw myself off of a ledge.

You sat there,

Not bothering to wipe up the mess,

Offered some of your two cents,

And left me to stress.

Now I just sit here,

Lying on the floor,

Letting my words drown me.

I shouldn't care anymore.

I know I could never have you,

In a way you desire.

That's what kills me in the end.

It's like sitting in fire.

Things won't stay how they are,

But I will be consistent.

It's won't be that far,

I hope we don't grow distant.

I've loved you from the start,

And I will try to climb,

But I can't have you break my heart again.

I won't survive it this time.