Web of Originality.

The start is always the hardest, because the things we humans are most afraid of is being judged for what we are,  so we try to be perfect or at least strive for something that's better than what people tell us is wrong, because we want to feel accepted, we don't want to be wrong.

So yes, I can honestly say, I too am afraid. That's why I write blind that way my feelings write instead of my judgement and choice of words. I am afraid of how people will judge this one page filled with typed letters like it's the biggest mathematics exam of the year and the teacher has put questions about things we "wouldn't have to learn" or things we "skipped".

This frustrating nervosity that comes when you're walking down the street and suddenly people say you're looking at them weird. And the next thing coming is like a rain of shattered glass.

I wish I could tell you one good reason why you should read my story. But I can't. I honestly can't. I can't put a description to that which is no fiction.

I however can tell you, that once you've looked through my eyes and see what I've seen. You'll be a different person. And maybe even look at people with other eyes. See their pain before it slips into the abyss of "nobody cares" where every letter cuts like a sharp razor blade.

It won't be easy to read, I can guarantee that. Sometimes you'll get mad, sometimes you'll vomit, sometimes you'll find it too horrific. But I can't change the world as it was for me. What I can do is hope that anyone out there who's like me will find strength in this.

My secrets welcome you into the deepest, darkest web of originality.