Shawn & Erin

CHAPTER TWO

ERIN POV

During the dinner, my sister saw something was wrong. She asked me what was going on, but I couldn't talk. I was shocked, it was like I had lost all my abilities to talk or to think. Shawn Mendes. Shawn. Mendes. This name couldn't go out of my head, it was the only thing I was thinking about. 
When my sister went back in her room, I took my computer to know more about Shawn. 

"Shawn Peter Raul Mendes is a Canadian singer-songwriter. [...] He released an EP and his debut studio album Handwritten, whose single "Stitches" reached the top 10 in the U.S and Canada, and number one in the UK. [...] He announced his world tour, which will visit North America and Europe."

Omg. I shouldn't have watched it. It is worse now. He is a huge star and the reason why he was in London was for his world tour. As I couldn't sleep, I listened to all his songs and I must admit I was impressed. His voice was powerful, soft, relaxing, the lyrics were meaningful, and I could feel how much he was passionate. I couldn't stop crying. I didn't know what to think. 
When I woke up the next morning, I saw I had received a text from him.

- Hi ! I know I told you I was supposed to go back home after my travel to Lisboa but I really need to see you again. I will fly to London this afternoon, can we spend the evening together ?

Oh. My. God. He was going to come back here for me. But I knew who he really was now and it would be really hard to hide it. But I decided to see him anyway. 

- Yes, sure ! Where do you want to meet ?
He took maybe 30 seconds to answer.
- I don't know..Maybe you can tell me where you live so that I can come pick you up.
- Okay, no problem.

I gave him my address, even though I didn't want to, I don't know why. Anyway, I wouldn't see him again afterwards. I needed to explain to my sister where I was going. I went into the bathroom and I took a shower. I didn't know if I should wear something special for him or just go like this, like..me. I chose a black gown because the nights in London at the moment were enjoyable. I wear trainers with it (yeah I know, trainers with a dress is a weird thing but that's the thing I'm the most comfortable with). I had the afternoon to think about what attitude I will adopt with him because honestly, I had no idea. I didn't want to ruin this last moment with him and he had probably a lot of good reasons to hide his real identity to me. 

At 8pm, Shawn sent me a text to tell me he was here. My heart started beating so fast, I couldn't breathe properly. I had to explain to my sister where I was going but she didn't notice how I was dressed so it was fine. I told her I will be back in a few hours. I went downstairs and I saw him. He was absolutely drop-dead gorgeous. The only thing I wanted to do was kiss him. He was wearing a black tee-shirt and black jeans and he had a radiant smile, it made me smile too. I forgot all the things I had learnt about him and I gave him a big hug, he laughed and said :

- I missed you ! You are gorgeous tonight.
- I missed you too. I can't believe you came back only to see me, that's unreal.
- I just wanted to see you again, I couldn't get you out of my mind.
- I should admit that it was the same for me..

He seemed embarrassed and he laughed, and I think I had never heard a laugh this catching, cute and precious. I stopped laughing because I realized this love story would never exist. Moreover, I didn't understand how he could love someone like me. I wasn't special. I was just an ordinary girl and he was idolized by million of young girls of my age that he could date instead of me. He saw my trouble and hugged me. I don't know if it was the better thing to do at the moment but I didn't reject him. He told me his flight was at 12am so we had approximately 3 hours to spend together.

After I let him at the airport, I started crying. I cried so much I had to stop walking because I couldn't see nothing. He told me he won't come back in Europe for months and it was probably the last time we saw each other. We didn't talk about who he really was, it was like he was a perfect stranger in this world and it was okay for me, and it looks like it was okay for him too. He told me to forget him even if we both know it was impossible. I know that in a few months, he will find another girl and I will be aware of it even if I won't want to because of his notoriety. When I finally came back home, my sister was sleeping and I was so tired that I went in my bed with my dress, I just wanted to sleep to forget for a few hours all my bad thoughts.

END OF CHAPTER TWO