Broken - EGD.GBD

Chapter 3

Once again I'm here. On my floor waiting for the person who I actually thought loved me to come home. Why am i even still here, here with him why don't i leave. It's because i cant. For some reason i just cant let go. I know it sounds stupid, maybe cause i am "stupid". I still think to myself everyday of when he said his vows
----flash back----
I looked up to him as he was about to speak, he had the brightest smile plastered on his face. He was happy. I was happy. We were both happy. He then began "Rose, when I first saw you, I immediately knew that i had to have you, not only did I want you, I needed you. I then promised myself that when I did get you, that I would make you mine forever, to love you, to take care of you, and to never leave your side. Since I promised myself that, its time to promise you that. My love for you is so deep that whenever i see you it feels like I'm drowning. I know its cheesy but its so true. For however long i live i will make sure to protect you and to never hurt you in anyway possible"
----end of flashback----
He promised me so many things, to love me, to never leave my side, and to never hurt me. How can he ever, in a million years, love me when he probably loves her, how could he ever be by my side when he's by her side, how could he ever prevent hurting me when he already did. I thought he was happy, i knew I was. Not only did he lie to me i must have been lying to myself about our happiness. Did i do something wrong, if i did then what? I looked at the bottle of vodka thats been keeping me lightly buzzed for a while now, running low. Im gonna go to the store to get more, its not like Ethan will be home anytime soon.
(At the store)
I glide down each isle trying to find the liquor section. As i found it I slowly walked, knowing i might tumble since i drank before. 'I got this' I thought to myself. Well I thought wrong, I stumbled on some workers shopping cart wheel that he was using to hold all the stuff that he was restocking up the shelfs next to me with. As soon as i thought i was about to hit the floor i close my eyes. I then felt two strong hands grab my shoulders stopping my fall.
"Rose?" A man said. And thats when I opened my eyes.