Homestuck x reader sadstuck

Dont let it get the best of her (intro)

(y/n) was a happy high pitched sweetheart.
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That's what they all thought.
She was always "happy" cause she wanted to live to help others see the light......but she never did.
She would always make cute little jokes and was another version of Nepeta to put it straight.
But there was one thing that she did alone that no one thought she ever did.
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She cried.
She cried all alone at night.
She wanted to seem strong to all the others and wanted to be accepted for her differences.
She knew she would never find love or start a family.
But she still made it through the the day and in the end she would curl into a ball in her bed and sometimes cry herself to sleep.
She knew that no one had experienced the pain she had gone through.
She had to deal with her father leaving her when she was only 5.
He even had the nerve to throw insults at her and her mother while walking out the door.
She thought that was the end of it,

And two years later her mother lost it and hung herself in the bathroom,when (y/n)got back from school she looked for her mother and soon found her.
She wouldn't eat or sleep for four months after that.
No one had to deal with the pain of memories like that.
She did however enjoy the company of a certain some one that she liked a lot more then she thought she should.
She would try and visit or talk to him as much as possible.
He wouldn't admit it around her but he loved her company as well.
He would always think of her at night and wonder how she could always be so happy and chipper.
But he never knew of her memories or the voices she had.
When she cried she remembered the terrible memories.
Her mother loved her dearly and that's how she still lived.
She reread the note in her head and imagined her mother saying that words out loud to her.
But the other voices were terrible,she would see her razor and hear that little voice in her head but knew better then that.
It would only cause people to worry about her and she would never want people to worry about her when they surely have better things to do.
One night she was doing what she did best at night.
Crying.
She cried harder then she ever did and gripped the sheets as if her life depended on it.
She was crying to hard and loud to notice the door to her hive/house opening......

I plan on writing
Kurloz
Gamzee
Karkat
Kankri
Sollux
Mituna
Cronus
Eridan
John

If you want another person/troll that I didn't list then go ahead and tell me in the comments
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