I loved you to the point where I hated you.
and I know that doesn't make sense but you drove me crazy, and you made me fall deeper than I planned.
at times id think of my future with eyes glazed over from crying all day and hope you thought of me how I thought of you.
its crazy, isn't it? how a person could change your outlook on life just with three words.
I loved you but then you hurt me.
again and again , until I hurt myself.
I stood in my bathroom looking into a reflection I didn't recognize.
I opened the pill bottle and poured them all out.
and there I was thinking about my life.
how you completely ruined it.
so I took every single pill followed with a thought of you.
I woke up in the hospital bed with a faded memory and a million questions.
I asked myself why I didn't know love.
and I know why.. because love never knew me.