Letters To a Vampire

LETTER 7

Dear Moon,

So where I was?

uhmmmm.

Ah, To the part I left your family home,

I was HEART BROKEN, HAPPY and LOST , all at the same time.

HEART BROKEN well because----please refer to the Fifth and Sixth Letter.

HAPPY because I'm pregnant

LOST because I don't know why to do, how to be a mother to our unborn child at that time.

It took me FULL TWO WEEKS,

to get back on track.

I changed everything my address, my number. EVERYTHING except in my work place and the organizations I'm volunteering.

I can say at that time I'M OKAY but not FINE. I thinks there's a difference. OKAY is half surviving, but not moving on. And FINE is surviving and on the way to moving on.

Its hard, not to be with you. On days I can swear, I needed you the most. Actually, I stayed with my sister's house after I left your family house.

Your family kept on contacting me.

Apparently, Patrick can't keep a secret and accidentally told your father about my pregnancy.

But  I hid, ignoring their efforts to approach me like calling, texting, e-mailing, dropping by. i always made my sister to say an excuse so I can't see them even when I'm at home.

Its mean, I'm mean. But what can I say. I'M HEART BROKEN PREGNANT MOTHER

AND ONE MORNING WHILE VOLUNTEERING ON THE BLOOD ORG, I joined. The one where I met you.

Your Mother came.

I tried to hide but it didn't work.

eventually I had to see your family and face our dillemma.

"uhm Hi Mrs. Cuevas." I said shyly

Then she just hugged me really tight and said "Oh, Rachel. Why didn't you tell us? We're so worried."

"Oh, I just want not to bother you anymore.Well., since Nathan doesn't want US anymore."

"Oh, Rachel." She said, teary-eyed. And I wonder. 'What's happening?'  She took my hand and led me through the door. "You need to see this."

"Wait, let me just --------"

"I already told them. You're excused today from you volunteering duties."

And we got in to the car.

"You need to see him and He needs to see you and know it."

And I thought to myself

I MUST BE CRAZY, BUT I REALLY NEED TO SEE HIM, I MISS HIM SO MUCH.

But then I thought.

HE DUMPED ME.

And then again,

*sighs*

"I guess it won't hurt." I hoped.

SIncerely,

Rachel