Him.

Drowning

I can't tell him when I miss him.
I can't tell him when I'm sad.
I can't tell him when I'm jealous.
It just makes him mad.

I can't tell him what I'm feeling.
I can't ask about his day.
I can't even be around him.
I can't say 'I'm okay.'

So, I don't ask about his feelings.
I don't ask about his thoughts.
I don't worry about what he's doing.
Or risk my feelings getting caught.

I don't miss him on occasion.
I don't text him all day long.
I don't let my mind vacation.
I don't let myself move on.

So, I won't worry anymore.
I won't think about the past.
I won't bring up any problems.
I won't move on too fast.

I won't text you as much.
I won't tell you how I feel.
I won't argue anymore.
I won't admit it was real.

I'll forget all of the problems.
I'll forget the lonely nights.
I'll forget your priorities.
I'll forget our stupid fights.

I'll forget how you got distant.
I'll forget how much I cared.
I'll forget your promises.
Maybe then, you'll forget I was even there.