Beyond the Shadows

Chapter 1

Chapter 1                                                                                                         The Light in our Darkness

I guess you could say that this is a prologue because this is where I am supposed to tell you my whole life story or something like that.  Well no, because thats just not me so I have one thing to say, my life is a mess and this is the story of it.  Now this is my final words here,  EPIC FAIL!!!

Okay, so now you know, well not that much actually but anyway, this is where it all started, the time I just had to think why I am like this and why my life is just an epic fail.  Well it was'nt always like this it used to be just a normal life.  I know I am babbling, so lets just get on with the story.  It was another day at school the most dreadful place for a teenager.  To be exact it was middle school the middle of my problems.  And I was like great , another day in Alcatraz.  Lets see how this goes. So I walk in fashionably late, as usual, sit down next to my friend Joseph. He was talking to his friend Seth and thats pretty much all he did.  He never actually was there when I desperatly needed to talk to him. But today he was going to listen if I had to strap him on a table and shove a soap bar in his mouth.  "Joseph shutup and talk to me."  He turned around fast and as soon as he saw me he had a wide smile on his face.  "About what?" He said still with that joker smile on his tanned face.  

"I dont know, just the thought of being well me I guess, I don't know who I am and if I do then why am I that person."  I just couldnt help but wonder what he could say to cheer me up.  I never actually have talked to him about a personal problem.  He was just a friend that was always their which was occasionally.  " I just don't know whats going on I just am feeling strange lately."  I was playing with the necklace given to me by my mom.  "It's just the way people talk about me.  "He just is not talking to people, not social she only talks to Joseph or some of his other friends." I repeated.  "How does that make him anti-social he has friends doesn't she?"  "Yeah but he never tries to talk to anybody else but the people that he knows."  

"So dont let those guys get to you".  He said "Yeah but it wasn't the guys who said it, it was my dad and a counselor."  "But that doesn't mean that you have to be like they want you to be, you are who you are and I love you the way you are, the creepy litlle bad guy you are, it suits you."  

" Ha, yeah I guess your right, thanks Joseph."  I could'nt help but stare at him this is the first time we have actually connected through conversation.  I guess we were the best friends anyone could be or maybe he doesn't see us as friends maybe he thinks I am just someone he talks to, well that is just the insecurity in me.

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