Tronnor Fanfiction

Chapter 1

Connor

I don't know what to do, because the fact is that I'm gay and I'm scared. I'm scared of what my friends will think. I'm scared of what my family will think. And I am terrified of what the fans will think.
Part of my family knows, but barely anyone else other than that.
I need to tell someone. If I don't what is to happen to me? What if I were to die tomorrow and then nobody would ever know.
Every day is another day were I tell myself "Today, I am going to tell the world."
But by the end of the day it changes to
"Tomorrow, I am going to tell the world."
The truth is i am actually scared. Do you know how many people would just love to kill and get rid of the gays. A lot of them, and part of me is like "Out of all the people who know who I am at least one of them has to be like a killer, or psychotic, or just an awful person who is willing to do awful things."
I need to tell someone, because if I don't I'm afraid that I will literally go insane.
An hour later and still, here I am. Trembling in fear, not knowing who to chose from my contacts.
I just skype Tyler because I don't really know who else to chose. "Hiii Connor!" He says excitedly.
"Hey Tyler!" I say trying to fake confidence and maybe-just maybe-make it seem like everything is ok.
"Con!! Turn your camera on!" He basically demands.
"No! I can't Tyler."
"What??? Yeah you can, the button is on the bottom of the screen just CLICK IT."
I don't want him to see me as the freak I look like right now. My eyes are all red from crying and I must literally have tears still going down my face.
"Tyler. I. Can't." I manage to say.
"Just do it."
Knowing that my only two options are either hanging up the call or giving Tyler his way, I just turn on the camera.
"See that wasn't so har-You're crying? What's going on?"
"Tyler, I'm-im gay."
"Con!! That's not a bad thing, don't cry, don't cry!"
"B-but."
"No buts, Connor it's perfectly fine. Do us all a favor, and be happy. Stop overthinking it."
"Tyler, the problem is that...I'm...I'm in love with Troye."
"WHAT? OH MYY GOD I TOTALLY SHIP THAT. Connor you have to tell him!!"
"Tyler, it isn't that easy. I cannot just be like 'Oh hey Troye, how you doing? How's everything back at home? What's new? Troye I love you.' I mean it just doesn't...happen that way"
"Connor you're overthinking it."