Author's Note: This book is written in Journal format, so Kenzie is writing to her diary in every chapter. Also, Kenzie is 14 in this.
Dear Diary,
Mom told me I had to start one of these. I guess my therapist is going to be reading it. sigh.
I'm not exactly sure what to write in here. Everybody always asks how I feel, and I don't know. It's... weird. I don't really want them to ask, because it should be obvious. I feel terrible. Of course, it wasn't my fault. But that doesn't mean I don't feel grumpy every morning and night. I can't sleep anymore, so I'm always tired at school and my grades are slipping. I'm trying to make more room for studying, but I'm always at dance, and my therapist appointments take up too much time so I really just wish mom would homeschool me again. Ever since she stopped homeschooling me when it happened, I've been angry. Why did she send me back to school when she still homeschooled Maddie? Well I guess she wasn't really home schooling Maddie, because Maddie couldn't do anything, but still. It isn't fair. I really wish I was homeschooled.
Mom had to go back to work to pay off all the hospital bills, so I'm usually home alone whenever I am home. I'm supposed to write in this thing when I feel "full". I feel full of stuff all the time, and it's irritating. How do I get it all out? I could fill this book up with all of my feelings, and I would still have something to say.
I'm supposed to list certain things in here too so let's start the first list I was assigned.
10 Things I am grateful for.
1. Mom
2. Greg
3. My house
4. my heart
5. Maliboo
6. dance
7. uhhhh....
8. Family
9. friends
10.???
I don't have a lot but I'm working on it. Why should I be happy? I'm alone now.
I have to get ready for dance now. I'm really happy when I dance because Abby pays a lot of attention to me now. But for all the wrong reasons. Plus Nia is always there to make funny jokes and Kendall usually takes me out for ice cream after. I guess I'll... write to you later?
Kenzie
