The Sad Truth

The Truth Behind a Smile

I'm not going to try anymore hiding is the best thing I can do now... I'm pathetic thinking people enjoy my company and thinking they actually care, why would anyone care about me? I'm a horrible, ungrateful person who should be dead. My existence is nothing more then a mere thread on the end of a useless rope. I'm on the edge of wanting to live or die, and on the verge of going deeper into my thoughts which are too much for me to even handle. Nothing really matters anymore, no one likes me being here, no one likes seeing me, no one likes talking to me, no one likes me at all so it shouldn't matter to them if I'm gone, how could you say you like someone and go around saying you've never seen them before? It hurts more then you think, when you're around I hide the pain I feel from all the harsh things you say. Could it be that for all this time you've never really enjoyed me? As true as it is, I'll always enjoy you. I know I'm not much, I know I don't mean the world to you but I know you've meant it to me. So think about what you've said to me and what I've said to you then tell me how you think I feel. But it's too late, I already know the story, what you'll most likely say, "I'm so sorry.", "I didn't mean that literally.", "I don't hate you I swear I was joking." Ha aren't you funny, I love that way you try and sound compassionate it really makes me laugh to see you try "so hard" to make things better. So just go leave me be I'd rather die then live to see you once more because ungrateful person don't deserve lost and kind souls like me. And if you won't leave yourself I'll just shut you out like I do to everyone else. You don't deserve my company or my kindness. I always took the time to make sure you were okay. All that time, all that effort I put into you... It was all a big waste of time... I can't get that time back and you can't give it back to me even if you tried.