SECRET - grayson dolan

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I opened my eyes, everything around me was quiet and it was dark. I looked at the clock on the wall, 4:17 am. Then i looked around a little, i was laying on the bed and couldn't feel my legs, or hands, i wasn't able to feel my body at all, all i could do was move my head. I turned my head to my right, there was some lady sleeping on the chair, i couldn't recognize her and she didn't seem familiar, so i turned my head to my left. There was a man, also sleeping. I could't recognize him either, but it was dark in the room and i was very sleepy, maybe that was the problem, i thought, i need to get some sleep. Everything will be okay in the morning, you are probably just dreaming, don't freak out Monia, don't freak out.
So i closed my eyes and fell asleep emidietly.

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10:56 am. I looked at the clock on the wall again. Okay it was morning now and everything was brighter so i looked around once again. I know now that i'm in the hospital, that's for sure, everything around me was making beeping noises, but besides that, it was very quiet. This time nobody was in the room except me, no strange lady and no strange man sleeping on the chairs next to me, and i was kinda realived by that fact, beacause i didn't even knew those people. But then again, i don't know anything, i don't know what am i doing here and how did i even get here, what even happened? Why don't i remember something? All i know is my name, only my name. I can't be here alone, i can't even move, why can't i move? What the hell happened to me?
I started panicing and my heart was beating really fast, i knew that i have to calm down or i'm going to have a panic attack, but i couldn't, i just couldn't.

The beeping noises got louder and faster, and my heart was beating even harder now, and then my eyes just closed by themselves.

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"Monia, get up! You need to start packing, you don't have much time left! Monia! Are you crazy it's 1pm and you're still sleeping! Your father is going to kill you!" I heard my mom yelling from downstairs.

"I'm already up and i'm almost done packing mom, chill! Everything is okay!"

I yelled back at her, even tho none of that was true, it really was 1pm and i just woke up, and i didn't even start packing, but i didn't want to upset her, she has to pack herself, my younger sister, and alot of other stuff, so i was just trying to make it easier for her.

Oh, and yeah, if you didn't noticed, my name is Monia. And it's been one year now since i got out of hospital, and believe me, this one year was the worst year of my entire life, you want to now why? Well first, i couldn't walk, i couldn't even feel my legs, i was in the wheallchair for 12 months. And i still am, i lost hope of walking again a long time ago, i don't even know how that feels anymore. Then, i lost my memory, i still can't remember what happened before the accident, or what the accident even was. My parents told me that we were all going on a family trip and that the plain crashed, but i never really believed that. I mean, they were all fine, no one was hurt but me, and that was too weird. Everytime i bring that up they always have some excuises, i feel like they are hiding something from me, but i don't even care about that anymore.

It was really hard for me to believe what my parents told me at the hospital that first day. I didn't believe them, i didn't believe that they are my family, i didn't knew any of them, but they didn't give up. They showed me old pictures of us together, old videos, they were bringing me my old stuff to the hospital just so i could rememer something and the most important thing is, that they didn't gave up on me. So i just decided to believe them beacause nobody would spend so much time on me for nothing. They really love me and they want to do what is best for me, and that is the main reason why i am packing right now. We are all moving to California, there are some of the best hospitals and doctors that could help me walk again, or maybe even help me get my memory back. And besides, i really need to move from here, i lost so many friends this year, beacause i didn't even remember them, a lot of guys and girls would come to the hospital to see me and i would just told them to go away, i had no idea who those people were, it was all too much for me. The only people i was spending time with was my family.
Then, I lost one year of school beacause of this, so i will have to finish school in California now. I'm not really sure if that is the best idea, i don't know how the people will react on me. I wanted to be homeschooled but my parents told me that i need to interact with people my age more, beacause i spent the most of my time in my room this past year, mostly crying. But i guess that is going to change now. Besides this 'new school thing' i think i am going to be much more happier there. New York is just too sad and too depresive place for me to live in.

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Hey guys, so this is the first chapter of my book, i don't think i like it and it's kinda boring at first idk. Things will get more complicated little later lol. And yeah, i'm new here and this is my first story so i don't really know how to work this thing so pardon if i did something wrong lmao. And excuse my grammar, english isn't my first language so yeah, i did my best.