Theres this boy i know, called Jason, he's that kid that sits in class and taps his pen, or shakes his knee, he's the kid everyone gets irritated at.
Teachers and pupils are so tough on him so one day I decided to make friends with him, see if i could help him or understand why he acts the way he does.
Very quickly from the begging of our friendship, it was obvious that all his ticks where just nervous habits that he cant shake, personally I've never minded them.
Jason is the kind of person who is an absolute diamond in the rough, he's sympathetic listener, a great advice giver, he knows exactly what to say and where the line is drawn... We just clicked...
See, Jason has no idea that he is like this, he's so cute and funny, yet thinks he's a dork and that he doesn't deserve someone beautiful... Wait, that sounds like I'm calling myself beautiful (I'm really not, just making a point) and yes if you haven't already guessed, I'm really into Jason.
Now, heres for the negative nancy news:
Jason likes another girl called rose.
Jason doesnt even like me (relationship way).
He doesnt get my overly friendly hints.
I doubt hes ever even thought about us as an 'us' not a separate 'friends' situation.
This girl he likes is an absolute stunner, hazel eyes, blazing blue hair and henna tattoos, he's a 16 year olds dream girl! How am i meant to complete? Im your average plain jane, nothing exciting, nothing extravagant, pjs are my casual attire and i spend all my time with my bearded dragon, so basically im the opposite of rose!
I want to see him all the time, talk to him every second. Its that kind of feeling where even sitting on a sofa for hours watching marvel films with them seems like the most amazing day ever, where making beans on toast is fun just because you're doing it together.
I dont understand why i feel like this but i hate it.
I'll continue to write as my affection grows, which im sure it will.
💘Lola.
