Reputation: A Roc Royal Story

so theyre dating?

roc royal pov

roc royal-*i went to school with a massive headache.all this nina stuff has been getting to me.i saw jennifer.she smiled at me and i just didnt feel like her today.i sat on the stairs.i felt a hand on my shoulder.i looked up and saw penelope.*whats up?

penelope-whats wrong?

roc royal-nothing.

penelope-chres we lie now?

roc royal-well talk later.*she nodded and i looked up to see craig and nini walking hand in hand up to us.*whats up yall?

craig-well its official.we go out now.*i saw nini blushing.oh god no.*

roc royal-craig let me holla at you for a second.*he nodded and kissed her cheek.that disgusted me.we walked to the side.*so yall dating?*he nodded.*bro yall cant.

craig-why not?

roc royal-what would people think?

craig-i dont care what people think.i really like her roc.*i could tell that he really cared about her but i did too.i sighed.*

roc royal-you cant.

craig-why not?

roc royal-me and her dated.no one knows but we did and i still want her.

craig-well it looks like you blew your chance huh?

roc royal-craig back off.

craig-fuck off roc.you had her now its my turn.*he turned away from me.i turned him around and punched him.he tackled me to the ground and started throwing some punches.i threw some back hitting him in his chest and face.we rolled and i started punching him.one punch landed on his throat and thats when i was pulled off of him.he jumped up and tackled me and the person holding me back.he got on top of me and delievered blow after blow.thats when they grabbed him and someone grabbed me taking us to the principals office.we sat there glaring at the principal.*

principal-yall both are suspend.chresanto for a week.craig for 3 days.got it?*we both nodded and left.were suspended off the team til further notice and shit.i hate this shit so much.i looked at him and he glared at me.*

craig-fuck you looking at?

roc royal-shut the fuck up.its your fucking fault. 

craig-how?you hit me first.

roc royal-all you had to do is let her go.

craig-no thats what you shouldve done.but no you want to get the girl and treat her like shit at the same time.shit dont work out that fucking way roc.shes happy with me at least now.she was probably happy with you until you fucked her over.

roc royal-we not friends craig.

craig-cool with me.shit i need time away from a petty nigga like you.*he slammed his locker and left.i sighed and slammed my locker going to my car.i cant believe this shit.i wanted to lash out so fucking bad.when i got home i stayed in my room and just trashed that shit.i flipped my bed over.i punched 5 holes in the wall.i knocked my punching bag down but i kept punching it soe now the filling inside is coming out.i kicked my dresser over.thats only 1/3 of what i did to my room.i sat on the floor and just started to break down and cry.i have no clue what wrong with me but whatever it is its costing my girl, my friend, and my sanity.i cant take this shit no more.my door opened to reveal my mother and nini.they both looked at my room.*

mother-chres.

roc royal-leave.*i didnt want them to see me like this.*

mother-baby

roc royal-LEAVE NOW!GET THE FUCK OUT!*i shoved them both out and locked my door.i slid down the door and just started shaking and crying.its official.i lost everything.i heard them knocking on the door but i ignored it.i climbed out of my window and walked to where my car is and just drove off.i cant stay in my room or else something bad will happen.being away for a minute will help me a hell of a lot.i drove for 30 minutes then i parked my car.theyre not open but im still going.im at my grandmothers tombstone.i feel safe and at peace here.especially when i feel like i do now.i sat on the ground with my back on the stone.*hi grandma.i love you.im in a bit of crazy stuff right now.i know youre watching me.i know its stupid that one girl can make you like this but she does.its somrthing about her that makes me crazy.i hate that i hurt her and my friend but i dont know how to apologize.you know i didnt mean to hurt them or my mom.im lost ma.*i shook my head and i felt the tears coming.i wiped them away and leaned my head on the tombstone.*im sorry.i hate crying.especially when im in your presence.*i cracked a small smile as a memory hit my head.*i remember you saying be happy boy.theres nothing to be sad about.*i smiled.*that was when my favorite football team lost.i know my feelings be all over the place.why do you think i mask them or keep them to myself.*i sighed.*now im rambling.look ma i just wanted to make sure i had your presence because ive been an ass these past few years to basically everyone.i know you would be ashamed of me.*more tears came to my eyes at the thought of her being ashamed of me.i wiped my tears.*im sorry.i gotta go.*i started choking up a bit.i got up and left the cemetary.i got in my car and drove off into the woods.i sat there and sighed.what am i doing?what am i going to do?i have to go home some time.not tonight.i pulled out my wallet and i had enough to stay at a hotel tonight.i drove to a cheap one and paid for a night.i walked to my room and sat on the bed thinking.i have to fix my life.i shook my head and felt the tears coming again.i shook my head and laid down.i feel like a fucking sissy.i wiped my tears and closed my eyes so i could find some peace in my dreams.*

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