As I smoke these cigarettes
Waiting for my death
The walls in my room
Enclosed with depressing gloom
Mocking every part of me
All things I'm meant to be
So hopeless
So relentless
Life is not mine to choose
It's getting tighter - the noose
With every day a struggle just to stay alive
Every moment I fight to survive
When all I want to do is fucking die
Something inside
Eating my thoughts
Reminding me off all I've lost
It's best to not resist
Just wait until it is finished
My life dangling in my hands
Slicing line after line into my wrist
The equation of life
Always ends in suicide
