Zollie gets back together ?

Chapter 28 : i dont want to

(Ollie)

It is 10 o clock in the morning and I am washed dressed and I have took the children to school. They are going for a sleep over today so I don't need to pick them up. Zosia is still in bed. She looked exhausted the night before so I don't want to wake her. I carefully shut the front door and took my shoes off. I made my way into the kitchen and made Zosia a cup of tea before going into our room. I gently put the cup of tea on he bedside table trying not to wake her. I then heard Zosia sit up. "Morning gorgeous, don't you think that it's time to get out of bed?" "Ollie we are off work today and I am tired so I wanted a good sleep. Come and lay down with me, I don't bite." I laid next to Zosia on the bed stroking her head as she cuddled into my chest.

(Zosia)

I am not tired and never really was but it was a good excuse. I am grieving, today was the day that my mum passed away and I couldn't get myself to do something other than to lay in bed feeling sorry for myself. I know that's not what mum would of wanted but I have never really had a proper time where I could grieve over my mother but now I have a family, it hurts even more that she can't be here to see our family and relationship grow and to see her grandchildren going from nappies to starting a family of their own. Ollie doesn't know about this and although we said no secrets I just can't tell him or he would just make a big fuss. I texted dad this morning but he hasn't answered yet meaning he is either in theatre or he is grieving just as much as me. Dom texted me this morning saying that he bought my mum flowers and he went to her grave this morning. It was so nice of him to remember. I want to go to the my mums grave and get her flowers and at the same time I should do the same for Arthur as I never really grieved for him either and this would usually be the moment when he tells me what to do to put things right or tells me about how nepolian was the best and that one day he would go to the battle fields before drawing out his pretend sword and fighting in mid air. Only if I had the pleasure of seeing him doing that today. I don't know how I'm going to tell Ollie but I have to as I have to go to their graves, it's not an option.