This is love? (A riker lynch and r5 fanfic)

I think I still love him...

Rikers P.O.V

OMG ME AND CHLOE HAVE TO DO GLEE AND ACTING/DRAM Next month so I'm kinda excised because maybe she'll Realize that she still loves me and we can live forever and happily ever after....un less she says no then I'll be very humiliated and then I'll just DIE and I know it why did I have to break up with her I was snapped out of my thoughts by Rydel saying"yeah why did you break up with her some times ur and idiot but I still love you cause ur my brother"then I said"shoot I said that out loud"then she said"yup and you sounded proud of your plan UNTILL u realized that she might say no ..."then I said "yeah I just still love her and it kinda hurts to see that she's going out with rocky and the weirdest part is that when they get into fights they still make up I know me and Chloe did to but not as much as them but I don't know why?"then Rydel said"maybe she doesn't wanna lose him like she did to you,you know what I'm gonna go ask her what she thinks KAY bye"and with that she was off to go speak with CHLOE I'm nervous.

Chloe's P.O.V

Rydel came over to talk here's our conversation (DELLY -Rydel me -Chloe)

DELLY -riker still loves you

Me-oh...

DELLY-but u don't do you?

Me-well I guess right cause your first love lives forever but I like rocky more than like I think I love him but I'm still confused

DELLY- why are u confused

Me -cause every thing happened so fast and one minute I was with riker the next I was with rocky it's hard especially since there brothers

DELLY-then you should have said no to him asking you out

Me-i couldn't I didn't want him to be sad or upset or stuff like that

DELLY - I get it but wouldn't you be much happier with riker

Me-......*in thoughts.. Well I would be no I wouldn't well I don't know I'm so confused*out of thoughts * well I really don't know cause I really Lo..ve rocky but I kinda still like riker so I'm really confused

DELLY-well u should make up your mind I can help by playing helpful games okay game one why do you like rocky

Me-well Rockies cute,funny,kind,caring,he helped me stop cutting...but so did riker..anyways he's creative has an amazing voice is really good at playing guitar and he's a musical genius

DELLY-okay what do u like about riker

Me-well..rikers cute,funny,kind,caring ,again he helped me stop cutting he's good at writing lyrics,he's good at bass he's a great singer ....so did that help

DELLY- really you almost said the EXACT thing except the bass and guitar and the lyrics part

So reach deep into your heart who do you really love..?

Me-....I really don't know I love both of them I can't choose I love rocky and I don't wanna hurt him and I like riker but I already hurt him so I'm so confused..

DELLY - I GOT IT....okay so close your eyes and imagine ur life with rocky and then riker and witch one do you like better okay close ur eyes

Me-okay*closes eyes imagines both* I love both of them there both so wonderful

DELLY - really ....WOW ur hard to help cause u really love them both don't you

Me- of course I do it's just hard cause whoever I pick I'm gonna end up hurting someone and one of them would be me cause....*sigh* why did I have to fall in love with two boys I..just..can't pick there both AMAZING boys but I would never be able to pick

DELLY -*wipes tear* I'm so sorry I didn't know it was this hard for you

Me- yeah...I rather self harm till I'm 30 than to hurt any of them I rather they hurt me instead of hurting them....or in rikers case again *sigh*

DELLY- do u wanna come over to my house for the night

Me-sure

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This chapter is kinda short but not really and the next chapter will be up in about 2 days or more or less and it's gonna be at the lynches house bye DOLLIES