Look At Me (ChanBaek FAN FICTION)

Look At Me

"Is it really possible to love someone from afar? Is it really possible for us to love someone this way? and this extreme? It it really possible? huh?" I ask myself.

Questions I can't answer until I met you. The first time I saw you, i was mesmerized  by your height. You are so tall. And then your ears they're so... big! I suddenly want to ruffle your silky hair. I suddenly want to run into your arms and buried my face to your chest and then sniff you until God let me.

You are so perfect. I am afraid to talk to you. I am afraid that if I talk to you I might faint. I just watch you past by me. You are such a head turner so everyone in the hallway we're looking at you as you walk past by them. Gosh I am irritated by the way they look at you.

The first time I saw you I feel like I wanna own you. I told myself that you're mine but then... I heard someone say you're name and my eyes went wide. No... no it can't be! You can't be the CEO. You can't be my boss. how can I make you fall in love with me if our status in life is like heaven and earth? But then I realized, oh well someone who has that aura can't be just  a nobody. He has to be someone big! Someone who has that aura can't be just a nobody. That's when I feel like dying.

It's ridiculous right? I just saw you for the first time but it felt like you own my heart. You own me, the whole of me. Funny tho... I can just love you from afar. 

I just stood there staring at the floor until I heard someone call my name, "Hey Baekhyun come here. I wanna show you your office." said Chen. Well, he's my friend who recommend me to their boss 'cause I badly need a work right now. 'Cause I have a life to live so yeah I'm working. It's not like I want to work, if I could I'll just lay myself on my bed covered by my blanket and sleep the whole freaking day.

It's already 6:00 pm when I decided to just continue what I'm doing tomorrow. I'm over working here. The office hours ends at 5:00 pm and obviously it's late already. Well I enjoy what I'm doing maybe that's why. I fix my thing and then check my table one last time before i exit my office. But before I could take another step I glance someone who is looking at me and when I turned I saw him! That same jawline. His big and long ears. His silky hair. 

But he's on his phone like he's talking to someone while walking towards the elevator. It's so impossible that he's looking at me right? Maybe it's just my imagination but that didn't stop me from staring at him even thought his back is facing me. 

'Look at me! Look at me! Look at me!' I repeat this over and over on my mind like this was some kind of mantra. I'm still looking at his back when he push the button in the elevator. I keep on repeating that three words in my head hoping that he'll really look at me but no. Nothing happen. When the elevator open he just enter it and continue talking on the phone.

I don't know why but I feel like I'm being rejected. I feel like I'm so worthless to be look at. Like I have no right to be look at because I'm just nothing. OH GOSH! Why do i have to feel this way just because he didn't look at me??!!

I took my like five minutes before I recovered and realized that I've been standing there like an idiot for far too long. And because I feel so sad and I feel like I'm so broken hearted right now I decided to go to a bar. Yes a bar. Well I'm a party people. I like going in to bars and have some fan. And this is to celebrate me having a job! 

While I'm playing my third shot here in the bar I remember his face. I remember how my heart beats so fast. I remember how my heart react as soon as my eyes laid on him. I never felt like this toward someone, especially so someone I didn't even know. Someone who I just saw this morning. And yes that "someone who I just saw this morning" is running in my head like he knows every part of it. ugh!

I drink my third shot and order another. I have to be tipsy before I got to the dance floor. Ah that's one of my rule... to be tipsy before going on the dance floor. Well, that's for me to enjoy the floors. 

After I drank my fourth shot I feel like there's someone looking at me but I didn't bother looking for him or her 'cause maybe it's just my imagination 'cause by the alcohol.

After my tenth shot I can feel my head spinning and that's when I smile. Yes this is the moment I've been waiting. My butt hurt from sitting there for I think like almost an hour?

I almost fell off my seat when I tried to stand up. I chuckle. Seems like I drank too much eh? Someone hold my arm, "Oh. Careful there..". What a sexy deep voice. I look up at him but my visions got blur so I can't see him clearly. But he seems familiar like I've seen him somewhere. 

I stand up straight and utter my thank you to him before I walk in to the ocean of people in the dance floor. Why do I have this feeling that if I stay with that guy longer, I'll be in danger? Oh gosh is this because of the alcohol? No. I don't think so. But whatever is the reason I don't care! I'm here to have some fun!!

I don't know anyone here but I don't care I just party with them like I've known them for a long time. That's what good in being in a bar. You get to know more people. You get more socialize. I jump and dance and party while my eyes are close until I feel like  someone is dancing behind me. He's tall I can sense it. But I didn't give a fck so I just dance and dance. He pull me closer to him and snake his arms around my waist. I froze. I'm about to tell him to fck off when he spoke, "Dance on me babe." oh that sexy deep voice. That freaking sexy deep voice that caught me off guard earlier.

i open my eyes and directly look at his eyes. my eyes got wide when I realize who he is. OH. MY. GOSH. !!!!! This is freaking insane! my jaw drop and he just stood there while still holding me and smiling like an idiot.

He turn me around so I'm facing him. I'm still looking at him in his eyes and he's also looking at me. His eyes is so intense like it's talking to me. He smiled once more and that when I feel like my heat melted. In just a smile he manage to melt my heart.

We are the only one standing there while everyone around us is dancing, jumping and partying but I don't care. He is in front of me and I'm willing to do anything just for this to happen and here it is now.

Just a moment ago I felt like I am being rejected because he didn't look at me but now, I feel like, like I'm in some kind of a spell. He pulled me closer to him and I can't help my hand to touch his arms. Ah... those toned arms. I can feel his muscled in my palm.

"What are you doing here Baekhyun?" he ask e=me.

He know me??!!

"You know me?" i ask him wide eyed 

"Of course", he put his mouth to my ears then spoke again. "I saw you this morning. you work in my company right? And ever since I saw you I can't get you out of my head." He kiss my ears then my cheek. He look at me before speaking again. His eyes is full of desire and.... love?

" Who are you? and what did you do to me?"