Memories - Dan Howell and Phil Lester

Memories

"I'm gay" I said as I looked up at my best friend who I was also madly in love with "really?" He asked in disbelief "what's so surprising?" My nerves started to grow as I was afraid he wouldn't accept me "I just never thought you were the type" he chuckled "I'm fine with it by the way" he added, making me release a sigh of relief. I wanted to so badly admit my feelings for the black haired boy who was smiling in front of me but I knew that I couldn't because I would never risk what we have when what we have is so amazing (Phil).

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"Dan I need I talk to you" Phil said, rubbing the back of his neck "what's wrong?" I asked, curious to what he's going to say "I'm bi" he said, a smile creeped on my lips as I pulled him in for a hug "that's great" I beamed, still holding him in my arms. We both pulled apart and stared into each others eyes. I may only be 15 but I do know that I'm hopelessly in love with Phillip Michael Lester.

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"Dan I told you to give me the controller now!" Phil playfully screamed as I held the controller up, not letting him take it from me "you have to say 'Daniel James Howell is the most sexiest and most amazing person I've ever met and I would do anything for him'" I chuckled as he tried to reach for it. Phil was shorter than me so it was easier to take things from him "I'm not saying it" he laughed. God how much I loved that laugh. I was walking backwards until I came to a stop as my back hit the wall, Phil didn't realise so he kept on walking towards me but came to a stop as soon as he's chest came into contact with mine. We both stood there quietly, the only noise to be heard was our heavy breaths and probably my heart beating. We both stared into each others eyes. He slowly leaned in and so did I, our lips soon touched and fireworks spread through my body like there was a Fourth of July party happening in me. We both unfortunately pulled apart "I'm sorry" I whispered, soon remembering that he doesn't have any feelings for me "why are you sorry?" He asked, tilting his head slightly "because you don't feel" before I could say anything else his lips smashed against mine again. He soon pulled apart "I love you" he smiled "I love you too" "can I have the controller now?" He laughed "only if you say the magical sentence"

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"I promise you won't be disappointed" Phil laughed, pulling Dan deeper into the forest "Phil I'm scared" Phil smirked, using this as an opportunity. Phil snaked his hand around Dans waist, pulling him closer. Dan cuddled into Phil's chest, making Phil's smirk even bigger. "Were here" Phil said after about 10 minutes of walking "wow" Dan awed "it's beautiful" He added "yeah it is" Phil smiled, not taking his eyes off of Dan. They were standing on top of a big hill that gave them an amazing view of the town they called home. "look Dan were in time for the sunset" Phil said, pointing at the orange, purple, pink and yellow scenery in front of them. They sat down on the grass, not taking their eyes off of the view. Phil turned his head and looked at Dan, he immediately smiled. Dan turned to look at Phil but instead of seeing the side of his head, he was met with blue eyes "Dan" Phil softly spoke "yeah?" "Will you be my boyfriend?" Phil asked, Dan smiled "yes I would love that". The whole night they were rather kissing or just staring into each others eyes. People would normally come up here for the sunset or the view of the small town but Dan and Phil couldn't take their eyes off of the beautiful view that they got to finally call 'mine'.

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"Remember this photo?" Phil excitedly said as he pointed at the photo of Dan and him when they were 5 at the beach. "Yes that was taken before you decided to destroy the sand castle we built" Dan laughed. They were both cuddling on Dans bed whilst looking at childhood photos. "Remember that? That was my 12th birthday" Phil smile at the memory "yeah I do and how I pushed your head into the cake after singing happy birthday" we both laughed at how that day went. "I love you" Phil said, looking up at Dan "I love you too"

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"Daniel James Howell I will not let any homosexual stay under this roof you are straight" Dans mother screamed. She found out about Dan and Phil's secret relationship after someone caught them holding hands and kissing. "But mum I love him" Dan argued even though he knew it was useless "you're 15 you don't know what love is I don't want you seeing him anymore" Dans mother pointed at his room after finishing her sentence. Dan dragged himself into his bedroom. Tears were streaming down his face as he through his lamp on the floor out of anger.

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"Phil" Dan loudly whispered as he threw a small pebble at his window. Phil soon opened up the window and smiled at the dorky boy who was on his front yard. Phil quietly ran downstairs and opened the front door. As soon as Dan saw Phil opening the door, he threw himself at him "I missed you so much" Dan whispered "I missed you too but you're not supposed to be here to could get in trouble" Phil freaked "trouble is my middle name" Dan laughed as he pulled Phil in for a kiss. After that night Dan would sneak in Phil's room at 2 am every morning.

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"We are moving!" Dans father screamed, making Dan jump a bit "what? Why?" "Because you are still seeing that Phil boy when we strictly told you to not see him" tears were running down Dans face "why are you crying over some faggot?" Dans father roughly said "I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU ALL" Dan screamed as he ran out of the house and made his way to Phil's. Once he got there he knocked on the door and it opened with a smile Phil who's smile immediately faded once he saw the love of his love crying. "Dan what's wrong?" Phil said as he closed the door and wrapped his arms around the broken boy "I'm moving Phil" Dan weakly said "let's run away just you and I" Dan suggested "we can't your parents already hate me as it is I'm sorry Dan I love you so much" Phil said, trying to show his man that he was strong but Dan could see right through him "please just don't forget me" Phil said, tears starting to stream down his face "I will never forget you only on one condition" "what?" Phil asked, puzzled "you say the magic sentence" Dan smirked, Phil couldn't help but let a chuckle escape from his lips "fine, Daniel James Howell is the most sexiest and most amazing person I've ever met and I would do anything for him" "good now I'll always remember you" Dan laughed, planting a kiss on Phil's lips, Phil pulled away and snuggled into Dans neck, not wanting to me him go "Dan get in the car right now" a voice from behind angrily said. Dan turned around and saw that his parents were in their car with all their stuff "I love you" Dan whispered "I love you too" Phil replied before having to watch the boy who he was madly in love with walk away.

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Sorry for the cringe in this book. I'm gonna start posting the actual chapter when I finish chapter 10 I'm currently up to chapter 5 so a week or two. My annoying best friend begged me to post this now it's just the prologue to get you ready for the book. I hope you like it :)