Heartbroken And In Love | Conor Maynard X Reader

The Beginning Of The End [1]

Why does my life beat me up and destroy me from the inside out. Why do people ignore 'the girl in that apartment' or maybe even 'that crazy girl'. Both dumb names I hears people say when I leave the apartment. My names Tess and this is my hurtful life as a high school drop out with both parents dead and an abusive boyfriend in jail. Quite the combination eh. I'm also twenty years old. Well I want to end my torturing today. Out in public where all the people that call me 'crazy girl' can see. It sounds terrible but they should know what they did to make me go so insane. They should feel guilt. I grab a knife and put it in my boot and then walk out of the apartment. I walk to the park and then to the fountain that's within the park. I bring the knife out and nobody sees it and then I cut into my wrist and yelp. I drop the knife and people stare at me in shock. I drop to my knees. I finally get a look at the damage I did and I see it was deep. I scream at the sight. I catch more people's attention. "Oh my god!" I hear people say. Someone runs up to me and puts their hand over the cut but I honestly don't know who it is because I passed out but why are they ruining my end. I wake up and I'm laying on someone's couch. "She's awake." I indicate it's a male. I stare up at the people. I expect two but there's three. Two look alike and there's the odd one out who is a redhead. One of them is pacing around the living room. "I'm Josh!" The redhead says. "Jack Maynard." The guy with blonde tips says. The last one is obviously his brother. I look up at the last one who is pacing. He looks at me. He has piercing blue eyes and chocolate brown hair. "I'm Conor Maynard." He says with a look of concern plastered on his face. I look down to where I'm supposed to be bleeding out and there is a bandage on my cut. "What's your name?" Conor asks following my gaze to the bandage. I stare into his soul with my ocean blue eyes. "My name is Tess Carrie." I tell the boys. "What happened?" Jack asks curious. "I was ending my miserable life when one of you stopped me from doing so." I state. "That would be me." Conor says. "Why?" They all say at the same time. "None of your business." I reject answering there question. "We can be your friends!" Josh suggests. "No one wants to be my friend." I state confused. "We do." Conor says. They all smile. I slightly smile. Not much. But enough. "Now I think you should start a YouTube channel." Jack says. "And move in with us." He adds. "Yeah! You could do YouTube for a living! And you could take the guest bedroom and you can meet our friends tomorrow." Conor agrees. Josh just nods his head. "O-okay." I stutter. They help me set up a YouTube channel called Kawaii Cat and then say we are going to a YouTuber house tomorrow. (I made the YouTuber house thing up. If it's real that's cool. If it's not that's fine. It's basically a house where YouTubers go and just have fun and make videos!) They help me set up my first video. It basically is just me introducing myself and all three of them are in my YouTube video. It's pretty fun but I'm still broken. We go back to my apartment to pack my stuff up. It's clean. I kept it clean. It was something to do in my boring life. I go straight to my room and start packing my clothes. "Hey need help?" Conor asks. "Yeah. Sure." I reply. "Why were you trying to kill yourself?" Conor asks. "My life was horrible. My parents died after I dropped out of high school. Shortly after that I got a boyfriend. He was sweet. But that changed after he started drinking. He hit me. I have scars because of him!" I look up at him. I roll up one of my sleeves. Tiny scratches are scattered amongst my arm. He rolls my sleeve down. "You can forget about your past now." He states. A tiny smile hits my face. I wrap my arms around his waist and dig my head into his chest. "Thank you. For everything." I say. A tear rolls down my cheek. He pulls me closer to him and puts his head close to my ear. "It wasn't a problem." He whispers. I smile. We both pull away from the embrace and continue packing. We finish packing and then put the boxes in the car. We ride home. Jack and Josh head to there rooms. "Where is my bedroom?" I ask Conor. "Follow me." He says unsteadily. He must be tired. I follow him down the hall to a bedroom. It's bland but after we get back from the YouTuber house I can start decorating. I smile. I haven't smiled this big since my parents were around. I turn around on my heels. "Thanks again." I thank him for the one hundredth time. "Like I said earlier. It's no problem." He said. "No. Thank you for making me smile! I've barely smiled since my parents and...just thank you." I express. He smiles. "Your welcome." He say while starting to walk out of my room. "Good night Tess." He states turning back looking at me before walks out closing my door. "Night." I mutter back even though I know he can't hear me. I flop onto the bed thinking about tomorrow and today and about the boys and about Conor. I fall asleep on that note. "Tess. Wake up." Someone says slightly shaking me. "Conor?" I ask. "Yeah." He says. "Morning." I say opening my eyes. "Morning." He replies. I smile. "Out. I need to get dressed." I tell him. "Okay. The others left early this morning. I said I would bring you." He told me. "Thanks." I said. "You really need to stop thanking me." He states laughing. "Whatever." I say. He walks out of the room. I put on a black short sleeved v neck shirt with a red skirt and black flats. I brush my hair and decide to leave it down. I walk out to the living room to see Conor waiting. He looks up and smiles when he sees me. "Hey." He greets me. "Hi." I say. "Ready?" He asks. "Sure." I say looking down. "What's the matter." He asks smiling calmly. "What if your friends don't like me?" I ask. His smile fades. He walks over to me. He hugs me. "They will." He whispers. I smile. I hug back. We stay like that for a few minutes and then let go of each other. I felt safe in his arms but now I feel lost. We walked out to the car and I got in the passengers seat and buckled up. I look up at Conor in the drivers seat. He smiles at me. "They will like you." He reassures me. I nod. He starts the car and focuses his attention on the road. "So what do you do on your YouTube channel?" I ask. He looks over at me and smiles but then focuses his attention back on the road. "I sing." He answers. I smile. "Really? What are some of your songs? Maybe I know some!" I exclaim. "Have ya heard Royalty?" He ask. My eyes widen. "That's like my fav song!!" I squeal. "Really?" He asks. "Yes!!" I scream. "Sing it." He says. "I'll sing it with you." I smile. "Fine start."

Tess
Conor
Both

If I had the money

Let me tell you how it'd be

I'd take over the country

Everyone would bow to me

Sit up in my palace

And baby you would be my queen

We'd run this ship together

Just you wait and see

We'll be royalty

We'll be royalty

I know I know i know

I know we're broke right now

But boy I guarantee that I will work this out yeah

See I got this plan

Are you in or out I need to understand

Trips to rio five star meals

Girl don't quit on me now

If I have to beg or steal no big deal

Oh let me break it down

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We stop there. "Your an amazing singer!!" He exclaims. "Not really." I say shyly. He intertwines our fingers. "Your a good singer." He pushes. I smile. But not because he thinks I'm a good singer. He looks back at the road. I look at our hands still locked together. "You must have a girlfriend. Is she gonna be here. "I actually don't have a girlfriend." He says. "Oh." I say looking away blushing because our hands are still together. "Why are you blushing?" He asks. "There's this guy I like kind of." I say. What did I just say? I guess i do kinda have a tiny crush on Conor. He was shocked and had to slam on the breaks when he noticed there was traffic. "What?!" He asked kind of sounding...angered? "I met him after the suicidal thing." I say. "You've been with us." He says. "Yeah." I say with a smile. He is squeezing the steering wheel. His knuckles are white. "Who is it?" He asks. I look down while blushing. "I don't want to say." I tell him. He looks furious. "Let's stop for lunch." I say. "Yeah." He says still angered. I don't understand why. Tears start swelling up in my eyes. I might have just ruined the best friendship I have ever had. A tear rolls down my cheek. He pulls over and we find a place to eat. I tell him that I'm going to the bathroom. He just nods. I head off. I come out after and see him kissing a fan. Tears strike my eyes and I run out and lean against the door of the car slowly falling into a sitting position. I punch the ground. I scream. I think I broke my hand. Jack and Josh must have stopped somewhere near here because they come out of somewhere down the street and they see me. They run to my side. "What's wrong?" Jack asks. I look to where Conor is through the window. Jack gets the hint. He looks over to Conor. "You have a thing for him." Jack says. I nod. Jack walks into the place. He separates the two and takes Conor by the ear and drags him out. "What is wrong with you big bro." He asks. "She likes you." Conor says. "She just told me that she likes you." He screams. Conor's features soften. I look at him. "Jack. Josh. Leave." I order. "Okay." Jack says while dragging Josh along. "You were talking about me?" He asks. I nod. He sits next to me. I peer into his soul with my sapphire orbs waiting for what he is going to say. "I'm so sorry. I screwed up so bad. I might have lost one of the one things I really care about in the world. You." He apologizes. The girl he was kissing came out. "Who is she?" The girl asks sassily. "The girl who is asking you to leave. Us. Alone." I say standing up. "Conor. Your gonna let her talk to me like that?" She asks Conor. I look to him. He stands up. He puts his arm around my waist protectively. "I was mad. So I kissed the first fangirl that I saw. I'm sorry. But you should leave." He states to the girl. "Yeah." The girl says to me like he was talking about me. "I was talking about you." He says pointing to her. Her eyes widen. "Kill yourself!" She says to me

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