Eyes of Darkness

"You useless piece of shit!" My heart couldn't stop pounding as I ran down in order to save my life. My boyfriend chased me down with fury written all over his face. "Come back here Angela!' Once I knew it, I felt pain on my head as he pulled my hair, and pushed me against the wall. Tears running down my cheeks, trying to scream but nothing coming out. He wrapped his two hands around my neck as he had me up against the wall. I could feel blood running down my head and arms. 

"Jeff please let me go" I put my hands around his wrist trying to release the strong grip, instead he made the strong hold tighter. I always wanted to die is a painless and peaceful manner. Their was love at the beginning however the love began to diminish, anger and frustration began to consume him. "Jeff please." My feet weren't touching the floor anymore, I could feel no more air running through my lungs, no more air to breath off of. I looked straight into his eyes and saw pleasure, pleasure of how he was making me suffer. All of a sudden I collapsed on the floor, he had released me, as I coughed out blood from my mouth, he walked away laughing, amused and pleased of what he had done. 

"Get up already!" He yelled from the hallway. "I need you to clean up the mess you made." He walked into the bedroom and closed the door. I looked at the door that lead to safety and no more abuse. I felt no strength in getting up, I began to crawl towards the door. I looked back to see if he hadn't stepped out of the room. I stood up and swung the door open and began to run, the fear of being caught kept me going. "Angela!" I heard his voice on back of me which made my body get filled with fear. I ran into the forest hoping it will bring me safety, so I could find a place where to hide. I saw lights at the far end of the forest. All of a sudden I heard a gun shot. I dropped to my knees in fear. "Where are you Angela? Come out and everything will be okay baby." I began to seek refuge on back of a wide tree. I looked at the sky praying to God to help me, to give me one more chance to live. "Here you are bitch!" I felt him tug my hair once more, he threw me on the dirt and began to kick my stomach, I could feel bones breaking, and lungs struggling to produce air. 

"No." I cried out. All of a sudden I felt him tug on my shirt in order to see my face in the darkness that covered the forest, was this the end, he took out the gun from his back and pointed the gun on my forehead.

"I told you, you were going to stay with me forever, and if without me. That's when your useless life ends." He said to me while looking straight into my eyes. I looked at the sky as I felt my stomach drop. My mouth coughing blood, the pain in my chest was unbearable. 

"Hey!" A voice of a male came out of the woods. I tried so hard to focus on a face, but my body was giving up on me, the pain was making my eyes go. "Let her go!" He yelled at Jeff, Jeff threw me on the cold wet dirt and kicked me.

"What are you going to do about it pretty boy?" Jeff laughed as he hid behind his gun like a coward. My eyes struggled to focus.

"Please..." I pleaded while extending my hand towards the stranger, my throat once again filling with blood.

"Shutup bitch!" Jeff slapped my hand away. "Come on boy, what are you going to do!?" My mind drifted away, I couldn't hear, see or feel anything.  

I always taught Jeff was the one, from the moment he made me fall in love with him. His family is undescribable sweet and caring, which made me love him more since I knew that if we were to ever get married that is how our family would end up being, happy and loving. Since we noticed our relationship began to get serious, and so did our carrers him as a very well known sucessful lawyer, and I as a nurse. We decided to buy a big house outside of the city, within the forest. The day the abuse began when he found out I was pregnant with his child, I felt akward that day so why not test, the love was real, and this moment of knowing that we could start a family was unbelievable. The moment I found out, I waited for him to come back from work to surprise him, I was so excited just imagining his face of excitment made me happy. I looked at that mirror that day and will always remember what I said "Daddy and I are going to take care of you my beautiful baby. We will be their to fight off ghouls and goblins." I laughed as I held my stomach in my hands, feeling so joyful. "I will be their when you have nightmares, and daddy will scare those monsters under your bed." In that moment I saw the headlights drive up the driveway, I raced down the stairs up to the door. He smiled as he walked into the house, and asked me how I was doing while giving me a kiss. I smiled, in that moment he noticed their was something that I wasn't telling him, I took him towards the living room, and burst out the big news. His face did not express any emotion, I smiled of happiness, but what he said until this day rings in my head "Get rid of it." My moment of happiness became a moment of darkness. He got up from the couch and began to walk outside towards his car. I shouted after him, he looked back and slapped me. I stood in their in shock, but the abuse did not stop, he threw me against the wall, until I dropped to the floor he began to hit my stomach over and over again. Tears could not stop running down my eyes, tears of pain and grief. He left me on the floor with blood surrounding me, I could not move, the pain was far to painful, I began to drag myself towards the phone, I called 911, but he walked through the door and take the phone from me and ends the call. He picked me up and put me in the tub, called a personal nurse that was paid far to good to even report the act of abuse. I stayed in bed for four days, all that was in mind was the words he mentioned to me. The money, popularity, and power had gotten to his head and he was not ready to give it to share it with anyone else, including his child. I became his trophy girlfriend, I had to quit my job, and isolate myself including from my grandmother who had raised me. Why did I stay, because I never felt love ever in my life, and I believed that was the love an individual would give you.