Until that moment I haven't known it was physically possible to feel so nervous and drained of energy, so sick with nerves and fright. My stomach found itself being clenched and then unclenched, repeating over and over again, as if on a roller coaster ride. Adrenaline was racing through my body, making my head feel light and a little bit dizzy, almost as if I was floating. I wasn't sure anymore if it was from nervousness and dread that I felt while hurting my friends or was it my tumor reacting yet again, ruining probably what was the last good moment I had left with the people without whom I couldn't imagine my life.
But at this moment imagining a future seemed like a bedtime fairytale, I knew I didn't have much time left yet I was indulging in wild imaginations. Still hoping to be able to study further, to be successful in life, to make my parents proud of me, to find love...
And to think all of this was caused by a petty confession game, which had somehow completely made me feel even more sick than I was, in a few seconds.
