so here is another one and i think it needs to be edited
Emotions explode, the dam is down
they are flowing with the force of a water fall
how I ever held them in is a mystery to me
as I think of all the times I bit my tongue
held my breath
pinched my self
to keep them from coming out
but now they flow freely
fast and furious
as if I never cried a day in my life
the tears pour down my face in never ending streams, leaving cool trails on my hot face
sobs erupt from my chest, and come out as strangled cries that sound so foreign coming out of a happy young girl like me
and yet the cries come out in an even pace
as if they have always been there making an almost soothing beat as they keep rhythm with my heart
which is now beating faster as if it is trying to beat out of my chest
and if it were to beat out I doubt it would ever come back to me
would I come back to my self is I could escape from me
and the darkness
I doubt it
As the tear fall I feel like an ocean is pouring down my face
And like the ocean my tears leave things on my face only they aren’t seashells
The tears mark my face as hurt, unloved, and lost
Thought I wish I could me lost in an unknown land away from it all
but would I still be me
Again I doubt it because without the pain and the fear and the love who am I
Will I ever know who I am truly meant to be or is the pain and the fear sculpting me into my finale product or is it holding me back from breaking out into the one i am supposed to me
I Doubt it
