Between You & Me {KTH}

{15}

Today I'm off work. I got my period and that's enough work to do for the week.

I hug the warm pillow while on a fetus position.

It's only 1 week before the wedding. And so far, i still fail to move on.

"Hey miss grumpy. I brought ice cream."

She enter my room and put the ice cream tub infront of me. She lay the spoon infront of me and open the ice cream tub.

"Stop crying and eat." She said.

I constantly thank god for giving me Suzy who's always there on my period times. She always come every time I send her the text "help me I'm dying."

"I'm not crying." I whine.

"You are. Tell me why."

I support myself with my elbow while the other hand wipes the tears I didn't even realize falling.

I take a scoop of ice cream and lay down again.

"I'm a failure." I said almost choking on the ice cream.

"No you're not."

"It's 1 week before the wedding, and I still haven't move on."

"That doesn't make you a failure, Song Haera. And beside, you've moved on.

Remember when you moved school? You were okay. You never talked about him anymore.

You're only like this cause you are faced with this situation.

It's like looking at an old scar and reminiscing it. You're not actually in it, you're just replaying it in your head."

I sit upright and take the ice cream away from her for my own.

"But remember when I used to be so close to him? 4th grade till 6th. And people would asked whether we were in a relationship or not. And we would answer "oh her/him? (S)he's my nothing." I never thought i would really be his nothing." I let my head hang low and continue to shove ice cream into my mouth.

"You're not his nothing. You're his friend. He invites you to his wedding. He wants you to be apart of one of his happiest moments in life.

You might not be happy now. But have you seen the movie You Are The Apple Of My Eyes? He ended up being happy for her."

"You Are The Apple Of My Eyes. Yeah. Let's watch that." I pull my laptop from under my pillow.

"That's not what I meant by mentioning that movie."

However we did ended up watching the movie. And I ended up bawling.

"How could they not end up together?" I bawl.

"You know it's based on a true story right?" Suzy adds in.

"Fuck you" I bawl again.

"You knew that." She look at me like a crying big baby.

"Stop judging me. My everything hurts. I just want to show up at his wedding and smile at him."

"Then do that. The wedding is not something you can change. Their feelings are both mutual, and they both are happy with it. If you really do love him, let him love someone else."

I know she got a point.

At some situation, you can't fight for the one you love anymore. In the end it's about where the heart belongs.

"You're right; But  for now I'm gonna pretend you never said that and continue being sad."

Not long after that my phone rings.

Suzy who's closer to my phone, pick it up for me.

"Kim Taehyung?"

I groan. "Yeah. He's my boss. Just put it on speaker."

She obediently put it on speaker and place it near me.

"What?"

"Where are you?"

"Home."

"Why are you not in the office? Are you dying?"

"You can consider that." I roll to lie on my tummy.

"I send you the dress, and on Saturday we're going shopping."

"Shopping for what?" I ask lazily.

"The accessories. I'm hanging up."

He hang up.

"Jerk." I throw my phone away to the other side of the bed.

"You? And Kim Taehyung? What?"

The door bell rings.

"It's a long story, open the door for me first please, I'll tell you after."

She groan and unwillingly open the door.

She came back into my room in awe.

"Haera! This is beautiful! Is this for the wedding."

I turn to see her holding the long dress very gently before hanging it on the hanger in the corner of the room.

"Yeah." I answer shortly.

"How did he have the dress though? No way!" She quickly understand the situation. "He's your date?!"

"I'm surprised too."

She charge into me and hit my shoulder hard.

"What was that for?!"

"For not telling me anything!"

"It was unnecessary."

"No it was not!"

"Okay okay I'll tell you everything."

I sit up right. And tell her everything.

"He wants you. I'm telling you from now." She said.

"No. He just felt guilty."

She shrug. "I've told you."