Changes - H.S AU FANFIC

Chapter 1

There's a nice way to wake up. That happens when you wake up naturally while listening to the birds singing, or when you wake up to the smell of home made french toasts that your dear mum is making to your breakfast.

But of course that's not the way I was woken up this morning.
I was woken up by the sound of shouts. I could recognize them any time, any day.

Do you think I just got off the bed and went running downstairs to see what was happening? If you do, let me tell you that you're completly wrong. I turned around in bed and fell asleep again.
I don't fucking care if she is shouting, again. But of course, as always, luck wasn't in my favor like it was when Katniss Everdeen decided to play with the Capitol.

''MARIANA. If you don't get off of that bed I'll go there myself with a bucket of iced water!''

If you're questioning yourself, let me explain. The shouts are coming from my mum... she's trying to wake me up and I knew that she wasn't kidding with this threat- believe me, this wouldn't be the first time she would do something like that.

''Okay my dear, I'm coming''  - this was my cue, I needed to get up If I didn't want to get wet -''I'm coming mum, I'm already awake.''

I got off the bed, took a fast shower and dressed. I was always a simple person, I know how to dress nicely but simple. Today I'm just wearing a nice pair of high waisted jeans, black boots and a oversized light grey jumper and a wine colored scarf. Okay, maybe you think I'm not fashionable but like I said before, simple. My hair was in a simple messy bun. 

Once I was downstairs, I strolled to the kitchen so I could eat my heavenly breakfast - yogurt and cereal - Special K and red berries. Okay, maybe it sounds gross to you, but trust me, it's amazing!
Mum was reading something on her Ipad while drinking her black coffee.

''Morning mum!'' - giving her a kiss on the cheek so I could finally start eating.
Mum looked at me, up and down, and nodded with her head approving my outfit. She was always scared that I would dress like other girls - crop tops and mini skirts on winter - yeah, I wouldn't do that because I like to be comfortable.

''You look beautifull has always my dear. Don't forget that today Is your last day in that school. I need you to be home by 07:00 pm so we could have a nice dinner with our friends.'' - mum wanted me to invite my 2 best friends, Catarina and Marta, so we could say our goodbye's today, since tomorrow I would be travelling to London.

Yeah, we're moving to another country. That means that today is the last day that I have here, in my country. Honestly I will miss basically everything here. The weather, my friends, the routine...but moving to another country wasn't something that I could change.

Life betrays us, life is unfair and we need to live with it or fight it.

We're living with it and running away. 

Mum refuses to believe that we are running way, she believes that we are searching for a fresh start that the both of us deserves. Maybe I'm the one that's wrong but I highly doubt that.

We're moving to London. We haven't bought a house yet, so we're staying with my mum friend - If I'm correct, mum said that her friends name was Anne. Mum said that the two of them met at a bar where mum used to work back in the time she lived in London. Surprise surprise, mum had already lived in London - believe me, It was a surprise to me too.

I think school Is fun. Yeah I said it, judge me if you want but I like school.
I don't know how's the school sistem in other countries, but here in Portugal we have classes with the same classmates and that helps us bonding with each other because we're together all day, every single day troughtout the school year!
Even though I failed 8th grade, and lost my classmates because they didn't failed, I still got to know amazing people.
Currently I'm in 11th grade. I should be in my last year, 12th grade, but since I failed I'm in 11th grade.

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Today was an emotional day at school. My friends were all sad because I'm moving to another country, some were afraid that I would forget about them. Yeah I'm moving to another country and possibly making new friends, but that doesn't mean I'm going to forget the people who were always with me when I needed them. 

Marta, a philosofical minded girl, Is one of my best friends. I only met her Semptember last year (2015) but she changed my life. She made me realize that I need to love myself - something that I didn't, and It's still hard to do it sometimes but I fight it. I fight to love myself everyday. Marta accepted my flaws the same way I accepted hers.

I'm shy. I'm really shy and that makes everything harder. Making friends Is harder when you're shy... I just hope that in my so called ''fresh start'' people will understand my shyness and accept me the way I am. Accept me the way Marta did.

After school ended I went to my best friends school. Catarina is my best friend for 6 years. We're completly crazy around each other. She challenges me. She's a really confident girl, not at the point were you think she's obnoxious, she simply knows how to be herself around others. 

We - me and Catarina - went to my house after I arrived to her school. Tonight she's having dinner with me and sleeping over, since she insisted that she wanted to go with me to the airport. 
My flight will departure at 06:30 a.m - yeah really early but she's an amazing and stubborn friend who insists to go with me.
Honestly I don't know what I'm going to do without her. She has been with me for so many years, she helped me trough a lot, and that help is mutual. I helped her in her darkest time, yet I won't be physicaly here for her from now on.

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Dinner was amazing. Mum was having fun with her friends and I was having fun with mines.
After we ate, Marta went home saying that she was sorry that se couldn't be here more time but her dad said that she needed to go. Of course I understood, but that doesn't mean I wasn't sad when she left.

''Cat, let's go grab a bottle of wine and go to my room'' - I want to spent time with the person I'm going to miss the most. I know we can skype or facetime anytime, but it's not the same. We won't be physically in touch. I'm going to miss her.
At the end of the nigh, Cat and I were in my bed, wich one of us with a full glass of wine and embraced in each others arms.

''You know that I'll miss you, right?'' - I nodded my head has a response to her statement - ''It's already hard to have a boyfriend living in another country and now you leaving it's like the other half of me is missing.''
I looked at her and looked at her eyes, they were getting red and you could tell that she was about to cry.
''Babe, I'm leaving but I will always love you. Don't cry. It's hard enough for me, but you know that me and my mum need to leave this life.'' - she nodded to my statement but I know that she still wanted to cry - ''After what happened, my mum think it's not safe to stay here. And you know that It's true, even though we don't want to believe it.''

I took the glass from her and put it in my beside bed table with my glass too. I knew that this wasn't easy, but It's happening and I can't change it. So I did what I do best, I hugged her and cried with her because none of you could contain it anymore, we lost control.

After some minutes crying we both fell asleep under the blankets. I always felt safe when I slept with her. I'm the little spoon and knowing that my best friend Is with me, makes me feel safe.

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If I thought last night was hard then I was completly wrong. Harder was waking up to see my best friend hugging me while crying her eyes out. Harder was giving her a last hug at the airport. Harder was feeling the plane take off. Harder was watching the view, the city, the lights growing smaller has the time passed.

I can only wish that after so many tough things that happened, not just today but until this day, will be just a memory. I can only wish that this Is indeed a fresh start. I can only wish that this Is what I had to do to be happy.

I can only wish I'll be happy.