I WANT HER (dirty Kian and jc Sex story)

Its hard knock life

ANASTASIA'S POV

5.24.16
Wow. My life is suppose to be this story tail of how I move out and begin my dreams. But that's nothing like this at all. I just had sex with a guy I like and before him another guy I like. I know it's horrible but are either of me and Jc and Kian dating? No. So is it really cheating? I guess not. I just want things to be simple.

7.30.16

What the fuck?? Okay to start off Jc and Kian went on tour. Yes we aren't dating but that doesn't give them rights to go fuck some hoes in Milwaukee. We're still in touch. But I don't know what's going on with Kian, he posted a picture about Andrea then texted me and said it didn't mean anything. Hmm I wonder what's that about. Jc is getting tweeted about his little scandal on tour. I called him and he said we'll talk when he gets home. I thought Jc no no were gonna talk now. But as stubborn as Jc Caylen is he hung up and hasn't talked to me since. I don't know about this anymore. Yes a couple months ago we had sex but did it mean anything to them? I don't know. After that might I still couldn't decide who I wanted to be with. My life is just one shit pile waiting to rot.

My mom was partially right. The world without her is hard. There are some nights I regret moving but I just think I wouldn't be were I am today if I didn't . I'm on my last year or collage. I still have my photography job but quit my other one. And I'm majoring acting, editing, all that jazz. But things are complicated with Kian and Jc. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I need them to tell me everything's gonna be alright. Even if they don't know they both had sex with me.