"THE LAST TAXI RIDE"

THE CHANGE

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No matter how strong as a person you are... but at some point there will be those pillows... those tears... which will speak a lot ... which the words can't ever do...

And the 'lucky' me that no one was there to witness mine..

After leaving suddenly from the function I went to meet someone very important... But now he had told something which was going to end everything of me.. Did he came into my life only to make it more hell.. ??? Why did I myself decide to meet him at firstplace...

I returned home late...

But then who came back as Divya sen was someone different from the one who went for the function..

she was more broken and hurt after meeting that person... even though it was her own decision to meet him...

And I was thinking why I really chose to meet him in my life!! Why did he come into my life??

huhh...kiddish thoughts...

My brother was frightened after I came home.. He thought his sister is going to scold him so much... He had his results today and had failed in one subject.. But nothing happened... Even it was much strange for mom too...

I didn't uttered a single word or shout at him.. Instead I advised him softly to work hard for next time while looking at him I told my mom to make "rasgoollas" as I received an award... My mother was damn surprised.... "rasgoollas" was among my favourite dishes.. But all these years, I never asked to make that dish..

Seriously??... How can you imagine a fireball suddenly changing to a softie ice-cream.. I also felt strange about my behaviour...

I was worried about something.. Still there was something hurting me after that meeting ... And I might hide my feelings from anyone but not from my mother... She did knew me inside out thoroughly... And on second day night she opened up...

"Divya, are you hiding something from us??.. I know you are hiding something.. I know there is something wrong with you...bothering you... But my dear I assure you that we are with you.. You know when I lost your father I was completely broken... I felt as if I had lost all my hopes... And losing him was a deadly blow to me... But I survived it... because of my both children.. And you both became my hope to live.. It would kill me almost if anything happens to anyone of you Divya.. ", mom whispered to me while standing at the balcony with me... with tears in her eyes...

That was the point where I found it very hard to control myself... Every single tear struggled hard to come out of me ...ripped me apart ... It was like as if a sparrow is finding a way out of her cage after struggling.. And the joy was indeed worth.. The pain was finally out after such a long time... That night I hugged mom tightly and slept peacefully like child Divya would... who used to do like that and sleep in her mother's arms..

Sometimes tears are way more important than just representing sadness.. They make us realize that we are alive.. And that is something worth knowing, isn't it??

After watching my mother's tears ...it hurt me most...

And I decided to change myself.. I decided to give whatever love my family deserved from me.. I promised mysef to never let me down due to someone and hurt my family...

Next morning I woke up and after getting fresh I made breakfast for all of us...I made "rasgoollas" with the help of my mom.. "rasgoollas" are my favourite...

And its known fact.. that you can never change a bengali....

Everything was looking normal.. After yesterday's trauma ...I retorted to keep my promise..... So I decided to take a break from office and called my boss to grant me a leave for one week.. I wanted to spend some time with my family...

We spent our first day watching movies in day time.. And having ice cream at night.. Mom and brother seemed so happy.. They were talking there heart out... Yet there was something keeping me at my bay... My little gesture shad brought smiles yet i felt something empty... Always my family mattered for me.. And that was what I had made my priority too.. I worked hard to support them.. And I hope I could do that forever for them till my last breath...

I didn't go outside... I wanted something to organise.. I wanted all my time to spend with my family...

Probably there was something which I truely wished to do so... I wanted to crush all the agony and grudges underlying me and my family..

Nothing hurt us.. Its just all the grudges which we hold inside our skin...

I wanted to give them all the happiness which they really deserved from me...

Second day I spend my time in cooking my brothers favorite dishes... And we had so much fun... Probably he had lost his sister somewhere else.. And joy of finding something, which you lost, so suddenly is immense... And the joy was evident on his face... ..

Later I called sunita...

"Hey good morning Sunita...How are you?? "...

Feeling surprised she replied "I'm fine Divya... What about you...ain't coming to office.. What happened?? You fine? "

"Yes Sunita, I am completely fine... Listen, could you do me a favour...? ", I asked her...

"Of course Divya.. Anytime... Tell me how can I help you? "...

"Nothing much... I just want a taxi...uhhmm... For whole day...uhhmm... Who can drive me wherever I wish to go...err... for that one day.. And don't worry...rest assured... I would pay whatever it would charge.. Can you arrange something?? "..

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" Taxi for a whole day... Huh!!! Its not quite easy... They don't go for whole time unless they know how much they have to drive and many other such things... I hope you understanding..",she replied with concern...

"I know that Sunita... But can you look for it.. I really need it urgently.. Please help me.. I know you can surely help me.. "

" ummm... I can help you.. Probably there is a person who can help you... He is my cousin... He has a travel agency... And plus he has his driving experience... Let me have a word with him... I will notify you if he agrees to it...but I would pin it that he is bit money minded.. And I hope you would not mind if he charges a bit ...err...more..."

"No problem dear.. I would provide every penny of whatever he charges.. Inform me as soon as he agrees.. "

And as expected I got a call from her after half hour.. She told that her brother had agreed knowing that I am her friend to drive himself.. And he have asked to charge whatever diesel it will cost plus 3000... And I agreed.. As it was beginning of my "TAXI RIDE"...