Past, Present and Future

[ RYUTARO'S POV ]

I wish I can go back the relationship we have like we were before.

[ flashbacks ]

"Ryu-chaaaaaan!" his high pitched voice shouted from afar. I saw him waving at me.

"Nani Chii?" I moved to where he is and asked him. He shook his head and just grinned.

"Nandemonai yo~" his in naughty side again.

"Eh..." I pinched his cheeks and he whined.

"Ittai yo! I just want us to play... it's still break time ne."

"Souka na..." I smiled and intertwined our fingers together and walks out of the studio. We played all day long until it is our time for the photoshoot.

I still remember how close we are before. We always play. Being the two youngest members in the group, we get along really well. But Chii is more spoiled than me, all of us pampered him. Even if I am the real youngest, well they can't resist his cuteness. The fact that he is the smallest among us.

[ end ]

I chuckled remembering our past. Those memories that I treasured the most is me, being with him.

[ flashbacks ]

The first time we met each other is way back year 2004 for a photoshoot. We were both strangers that time, the photographer told us to hold our hand together and we did so. I've known that he's two years older than me but looks younger coz of his face especially his height. And after several years, I've never expected that we will share the same band.

"Ryu-chan... Daisuki." hearing that makes go crazy. Not knowing how to react in his sudden confession, I just smiled and hugged him tight as an answer. I don't know what that really means but for now, I want us to stay like this for a while.

After that, he didn't open the topic about it again. Everything is okay between us but after some months I can feel that he's going distancing himself away from me. Until Yamada and him became more closer than we were. All of us are actually close to each and everyone, and since then he's been with Yamada in Hey Say 7, but I know Chii first before him. And now I can't do anything. I know that I can't tell him to not to be close with Yamada but I am just scared. Scared of being alone?

As time goes by he became more distant and famous just like Yamada. He's the son of the Olympic medalist Chinen Takashi, a well-known acrobatic in Johnny's, his cute face and high-pitched voice when we were young. And then became a member of another unit NYC boys. He became more busy and spend less time with me. He's Chinen Yuri after all.

Doing the 'YamaChii' fanservices made my heart shattered into thousands of pieces and I can't put it back. I wonder why...

"Gomene..." I hear him saying when I confessed my feelings to him. Finally realizing what it was.

"Ryosuke and I... Ryosuke and I felt the same way too. We are actually dating since months ago. I am sorry, I can't." he bowed.

"Why?" I wanted to whack myself for asking the obvious question.

"How about me?" I feel like I am breathless that time.

"That was before... Ryosuke is my present now... and going to be my future. I'm Sorry." he stepped back and walked away from me, leaving me behind. I heard Yamada calling him by his first name and he smiled. Those smiles that once for me. I now regret it. I didn't even make it clear before if what was that confession that he made. But I knows that it's not just for friendship, it's more.

Several months after that confession, I finally leave the agency for good. I don't want to stained the name of Johnny's especially my family there, Hey! Say! JUMP. I want them to grow more and spread their dreams. I leave for the sake of my love one.Now, I am like those fan of yours. Just watching you from afar... even if I can contact you, I don't have the courage to face you after what happened.

I wonder why our relationship just ends up like this. The bittersweet story.

おわり。。。

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Yes ! It's ChiiTaro but still YamaChii in the end XD haha !!! This story is just my imagination on what Ryutaro felt when he leave JUMP esp. Chii ^^ I am ChiiTaro shipper as well fufufufufufufufu

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