This is the story of my life.. The real story... My bestfriend is @thefrustratedfangirl and Norainne is @SecretAuthor08.. I'll try to update everyday..
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Best friend? No... I love her.. Yes, I am a boy.. Any problem? Oh come on. I know it's gayish but what will I do? I so love her and you got nothing to do with that. It started when I got 13, now Im 15. I'm in a birthday party and it's my bestfriend's birthday. I danced with her under the moonlight and it was wonderful. I like her ever since but I realized that it was love when she hugged me.. Slow-mo-s, heartbeat, and the happiness. Gayish right? Love can be gayish. I am sharing you my story because I want you, all, to realize that you should not lose hope especially if it is for the one you love. Once I thought about giving up and it was really hard for me. I was 15 that time, April 28, 2013 I was about to confess to her but... oh it hurts.. haha.. but before confessing, I was already broken.. She told me that she got her first boyfriend 1 hour ago that time.. I was so broken that time.. It's too late to confess.. I really loved her.. Everytime I close my eyes, she's flashing in my mind.. Her smile is the most precious thing for me.. Whenever she gets hurt, it hurts me bigtime.. 3 times painful than her.. And the reason of the pain WE feels? Her boyfriend. Her f*cking boyfriend. I even begged her to leave him because I know that her boyfriend will only hurt her.. pathetic right? but this is life.. Life is pathetic.. Life is painful.. But she is my life.. My life is the most painful, and at the same time, the most precious gift for me.. In factm I am thankful that she is my BESTFRIEND.. Because without her, my life will be worthless, wasted.. I never loved anyone but her.. All I am doing is taking care of her.. I am her pillow everytime he needs somebody to hug, her handkerchief when she cries, the lamp when her life is full of darkness, but it seems that she never noticed it.. What should I do now? Give up? No.. I am strong.. Probably the strongest man.. I sacrificed my everything for my girl.. girl bestfriend.. I remembered one time, she called me.. She's crying and it crushed my heart.. The reason? Her boyfriend again.. He dumped her for her younger sister.. I know how much it hurts her and til now, she's in pain.. but her boyfriend came back, asking for another chance and she accepted him again.. She really love him, right? She's still holding her boyfriend after all the pain.. It is hard for me.. Last Oct. 28, it's their 6th anniversary, he didn't called nor texted her.. Again, she cried.. If I only had a chance to talk to her boy, but... she never let me know who is the boyfriend.. I talked to her bestfriend Norainne last night through phone.. She got many bestfriends.. we are 3.. haha.. Norainne, Icel and me, Thyrone.. I told her to take care of her because she's too fragile, one touch and she'll be broken.. Her family, her boyfriend, her everything hurts her.. and im thankful that I am not one of them.. I believe that i am the only person (aside from Norainne) she trusts.. i told Norainne everything and she's surprised, i think? Haha.. Norainne told me that she got many problem and Norainne's the only one I trusted to take care of her.. I am away fom her now because I need to go to school and Norainne's taking care of her while Im gone.. Thank you for listening to my story.. Til next time..
