A Choice

The Ride

"I've got sunshineee, on a cloudy day" I heard my dad singing as I packed all my things in the trunk. He looked at me with his big brown eyes as I got in to the passenger side and sung his heart out "Iiiiii guess you say, what can make me feel this wayy? My girllll..... My girl!" all I could do was laugh at my dad's horrible singing. I put my seatbelt on as he glanced over at me turning the radio down and said "you ready sweetheart?" I replied back with "let's do it dad." He smiled at me gracefully with his perfect white teeth.

My dad wasnt your average 51 year old. If you put us side by side it wouldn't be hard to tell I was his daughther, we were almost identical. We possed very similar features, but our best were our eyes. He was very handsome if i do say so my self and I'm not saying that, because im his daughter my old man had it going on! He has a wonderful sense of humor, Easy going, and not to strict but i knew not to over step my boundaries. One thing he was for sure very over protective just like my 3 older brothers. It was ridiculous, but i knew they were just looking out for me and it would pay of in the long run. Minus all that he was the sweetest guy on the entire planet. If you needed anything he'd help you that's just how caring he was. Even if he didn't have he'd give you his last that's what I loved that about him. He was so grateful for everything and stayed humble and in many ways he inspires me in day to day life. He was the greatest parent a girl could ask for and my best friend there was no other like him.

As we road through my home town I couldn't lie I would definitely miss the hell out of this place, but shit it is what it is. I looked at my dad who was also reminiscing knowing he'd miss Pennsylvania. I'd definitely miss my friends Diana, Morgan, and my ex boyfriend Daniel the most, all though we fell off the last two months of our relationship, Daniel and I loved each other and I knew I'd most definitely miss him. 

I found myself thinking about last night it was the perfect ending to Daniel and I. I couldn't have asked for it to have happened any other way. Although the last two months of our relationship got kind of rocky, confusing, and painful our little one year relationship was definitely beautiful and memorable. With him being my longest relationship and most exciting, I honestly do care about him and wish him the best in life, but we both knew we couldn't continue a long distance relationship when we were barley managing the one here at home.

*Last Night*

"Beep" looking down at my phone the letter "D" followed by a heart, lock & key, and the "kissey" face emoji of course. "I'll be there in about an hour so don't take too long, but dress formal we're going out to eat" it read. I replied "ok" and headed towards my closet. Having prior knowledge about the date I already showered and washed my hair. I grabbed the first dress I saw. It was a tight fitted all black dress that stop a few inches above my knees and of course I grabbed my red pumps from the bottom of the closet to match.

Moving into the bathroom I knew just how I wanted my hair. Making a side part I flat ironed it and then curled it. I wasn't much for make up, but I liked the few occasions where I actually put it on. I put on light eye shadow, mascara, eye liner, blush, and red lipstick. It was 8:55 so I stared to head down stairs.

"UH OH, UH OH, THERE SHE GOES!"my dad yelled as I came around the corner." stop your foolishness" I said while laughing a bit from the clown that he is. "Are you going to be okay with me leaving you here alone old man?" I joked. " HA you made me laugh, you know im 25 at heart, I'll be fine" he smiled."Ok dad i love you see you later." I said turning to the door. "I love you too I expect you home before midnight, be safe text me when you're on your way back sweetheart." Daniel pulled up just as I walked outside. He was always a very punctional person suprisingly, you wouldn't expect that from most guys.

He got out and came around to the passenger side of his 2015 red Mazada 3 and opened my door. " Good evening Ms.Monroe you look stunning tonight!" he said with a charming smile as I approached the car."And you look rather dashing yourself sir" I smirked before slipping in. Daniel was indeed dashing, the boy could dress,. His hair was the same a messy but in a very attractive way making him look manly. He was truely breath taking. He was very well muscled his shoulders were nicely broad without being too bulky, which emphasized his lean waist and long legs. He was 5'11 with very soft brown eyes, his lips tinted pink, bushy but managed eyebrows, and a beautiful sculpted jaw line. I would definitently miss that face.

As we pulled off not much was said we had a long night ahead of us so we just enjoyed the ride. We arrived at a Italian resteraunt called Nino's. We let the valet park the car and headed in side. We made our way to the podium where a middle aged man dressed in a waiter's attire was standing. Daniel approached him about the reservations for two. " Right this way sir" was his reponse. He seated us and handed us the menus. At this resteraunt you order your appetizers, main course, and desserts all at once so by the time the waiter returned we were ready to order.

For the appetizer we ordered Olive bruschetta, Main course: Gorgonzola, fig and pancetta pizza, and Dessert a white peach tart. The food was absolutely scrumptious. We talked about the argument in May which now seemed pointless considering this maybe the last time we see each other. We talked and laughed all and all it was a beautiful date. Daniel paid and we headed home. As we pulled up to my house it finally hit me this is really it for Daniel and I. There was a dark gloomy feeling in my stomach as I saw tears forming in his eyes. I wasn't much of a crier but I did get teary eyed, but of course they didn't drop.

"Thank you for a spontaneous night Mr. Green, I'm glad we finally understand where we went wrong and we had the opportunity to salvage our friendship. You have my number don't forget about me! I tried to joke instead it didn't sound funny at all. It came out horrible due to the clog of emotions in my throat, he didnt reply. Suddenly I felt his warm palms grasp my face as he pulled me in for a kiss. It was powered with deep emotions and want. over the shock I kissed him back just as forcefully. " I'll never forget you baby his face was serious. Never in a million years. I love you and I'll miss you so so so much." He choked as he pulled away. We exchanged a few more words and I gave him a long kiss on the forehead and told him good night. I stood on my door step as I watched him drive away. I tried so hard to hold back the tears trying not to frustrate my dad as I walked back in.

I knew that it would probably be a long time before I could see myself with anyone else, but that wasn't gonna stop me from living my life. My dad asked me "hey you wanna stop and get a snack for the road now or later?" Taking me out my deep thought, I answered "now of course dad I'm starving." I didn't care I loved food over anything! My dad knew that so he went to the nearest gas station. My dad got out of the car and brought me back 2 King size white Kit-Kat bites, some cranberry juice, and 2 regular ones for him. Gosh that man knew me so well, he knew I loved white chocolate just as I knew he loved chocolate period. As my dad pumped gas in to the car I began drinking my juice.

I couldn't help but reminisce about how close me and my dad was, he's always been there for me when no one else was him and my 3 beautiful big brothers Jose, Nate, and Bash if you want me to be honest they were all I had. Jose being 23 the oldest he always loved trains so he became a railroad conductor so predictable right? Nate was 20 he was big on sports like my father so he was going to school to get his bachelor in sports management. Then we had Bash the baby boy he was 18 fresh in college majoring in music production. Me and bash was probably the closest and most affected by my mother's disappearance but surprisingly it affected him most and last but not least there was me little old Nicole Aniya Monroe 17 confused about what I wanted to be in life all I knew was I was going into construction so my possibilities were endless plus I loved to draw so we'll see where that gets me . My dad came back in to the car and said "we'd be there in no time" I shot him a smile and quickly tilted my seat back.

***** 5 hours later

I dozed off barley getting any rest last night it was now 10:00 realizing my dad had knocked out 5 hours I decided to get up and talk to him. "So dad...............