--this is written in joshua's pov :--)
It's been a year, my love. It's been a long year since you avoided me on your own. All this time we're wearing our wedding rings, I'm glad we still are.
Do you remember when you declined my offer to have a date with you last Valentines' Day because you said you'll have to work overtime?
I saw you with your boss, you were linking your arm with his, but I didn't mind, and as your husband, it was my job to understand you. I love you.
Do you remember when you had colds and I had to buy you medicine and ingredients for the porridge I want to cook for you?
Back home, I saw you again, with your boss and he was cuddling with you. Then again, I had to understand you, because it is my job, as your husband. But don't worry, I still love you and I always will, and that's what matters most.
But do you remember when I asked you out on a date last December 24? That night, I wanted it to be the first ever night that I would go to church with you, and with our child.
When you declined, that time I realized I never did it with you because I respect you so much I had to keep everything inside me. I didn't think twice that I wasn't the father of the child you carry, and I was positive it's your boss. I'm sorry if I didn't help you with your needs, (Y/N), but then I love you so much. That is what's important.
The day after, it was Christmas. I bought the child both blue and pink onesies, because you never told me the gender of the baby. I loved the pink one, so, so much. I have imagined my future with you, (Y/N).
Just like when I would spend the night at your house, I'd braid your hair and if it ends up messy you'd still praise me because you said it was my work. I'd love to do that to our daughter's hair, and because of practice, I'd finally do it perfectly and she'd give me a kiss on the cheek.
You're my life, (Y/N). But I'm sorry I had to do this.
I handed you an envelope, tied with a pink ribbon, since it was your favorite color. You happily accepted it, and it was the first time I have seen you smile again, and I could feel my heart beating faster than the usual. But your smile dropped when you saw what was inside. Inside it was a pink pen, and divorce papers. I myself didn't want to sign that kind of paper, but I have to. I'm sorry that I have to, (Y/N).
Tears fell from your eyes and I wasn't ready. I instantly rushed to you, your mouth opens but closes, it was like you wanted to say something but you can't.
"Come on, sweetheart. You can tell me anything. Good or bad. And stop crying, it will affect our child." I said as I brushed away your tears. It pains me to see you crying, and what hurts more is that I said it was our child when it's not. You're someone to be ashamed of, Joshua Hong.
But I was so shocked that I couldn't digest what you did next. You broke the pen. I chose it because it was your favorite color.
"Did you not like it?" I asked you but you answered me with the most unexpected words I thought I won't hear from you.
"I... I cheated on you. I cheated on you, Josh." You whispered. I nodded. I was the next one to say the most unexpected words you thought you wouldn't ever hear from me.
"I know. I know you did. I know that you did it with your boss. I know that your child isn't mine." It might've sounded that it doesn't hurt, but it does. It does, so much. But if I could understand you, then why not?
"What are you doing? Hurt me! I deserve all the pain, Josh! Hurt me! Let me feel what you've been through for the past year I was cold to you!" You shouted at me.
I raised my hand, and you closed your eyes. You were ready to bear the pain. For me. 'She's doing it for me,' I thought. That's where I started to love you more, than I have been doing for the past years.
Silently giggling, I brought my hands to your face and gently held it, as I kissed your forehead. It was a long kiss, and every gap was filled completely. Tears fell, but I was smiling.
It may have seemed that I have been stupid for the past year, but all the pain was worth it. My precious, and loving (Y/N) is back.