Fallen.

~*Prologue*~

I stared blankly down at my tear stained sheets. Watching, as my tears gently slide down my cheeks, onto my bare legs, and onto my sheets.

"Why... What did I ever do to deserve this." I whisper to myself in the dim lights of my room. The silence around me was pulsing, causing me a headache. I shut my eyelids slowly, as if they were breakable if I closed them to fast. My heart thudded quickly against my chest as my whole body trembled, letting loose another bucket of tears. They streamed down my face quietly, unoticed by anyone around me. Everything had gotten to much. The bullying, the rumors, the comfort of love, that I will never fully grasp. I never fully could understand why this would happen to me. Of all people. I tried my best. But I couldn't escape it. My self esteem went lower and I fell into it's grasp.

I laid onto my left side, curling my legs into my body and wrapping my arms around them, as if I could disappear from the world. The things they said ran through my head once more. Loser, freak, worthless, emo, goth, slut, whore, hoe, stupid, idiot, never accomplish anything. They went around and around, leaving me in the middle of that cycle, the one being hurt over and over. I felt so alone, so uncared for. Nobody knew it. My parents thought I was fine, my friends thought I was happy. What they didn't know, was what happened when they weren't there.

Eventually, sleep over came me, pain drifting away like it was never there. It was threatening to come back once I wake up, but the comfort of sleep had numbed me. I once again thought of the person who I loved so dearly, but they always ignored me, forgot about me, and didn't ever know what they were doing to me. I once again thought about the people who hurt me, tried to bring me down, and successfully did. At least there was few, that knew about all the hurt, and were there for me, every step of the way. I fell deeper into sleeps warm hold, drifting off into a deep sleep, forgetting everything that had happened the night before.