My life is a Mess

Chapter 33

Kara
I look behind the corner and see Luke pop his head out of the door. I quickly hid behind the corner. I cover my mouth, so he doesn't hear me breath so loudly. I hear him close the door. I get out of my hiding place and ran back to my room. I closed the door and fell on the floor. I  started crying and hugged my knees. Maybe, I'm going insane, maybe you are just still missing him. Kara, why are you thinking or crying about him. He broke your heart. I got up from the floor and stared out my window. I wipe away the tears. I'm starting to have a great vacation and what ever is going on here, but I can't let it get to me. "Sister, dinner is ready." Kylie said pocking her head into my room.

"I'm coming." I told her and she closed my door. I leave me room and head to the beach for dinner. I see everyone sitting down already. I walked down and everyone looks at me.

"Kara sit next to me." Kylie says waving her hand to me. I walk to her and sat down next to her. I stare at my empty plate waiting for the food to come out already. Everyone is talking but I start thinking about Luke. His bright blue eyes and his smile. Oh his smile makes me smile and make my heart skip a beat. His hair when he wakes up in the morning. Sticking up everywhere and him looking in the mirror to fix it. His laugh. His laugh make me laugh with him and I can't stop laughing. "Kara, did you even hear me?" Kylie asked me.

I looked up at her. "Yeah, yeah totally." I said moving my hair from my face.

"What did I say?" She asked me.

"Um, something about your lip kit." I said looking away from her. I stare at North. North's curly hair. She is such a happy little girl. I want to happy like her but I want with me to make me happy. I'm still in love and I can't stop myself.

"No, it was not about my lip kits." Kylie says going onto her phone. She showed me a picture of Luke.

"Why are you showing me this?" I asked her. It was a picture of Luke and I smiling at the fashion show that Kendall invited us to. She pointed and I follow her finger. I see Luke standing there with his guitar. I stand up from the table. I look at everyone and they are all quiet. I wasn't going insane. "Luke?" I asked.

"Kare Bear" As he says my nickname. I push me chair and it falls into the sand. I walk around the table to get to him.

"You don't deserve to call me that." I cried. I grab him by his shirt. "I hate you. I hate you." I told him. I love him but I hate him. I had tears going down my face and Luke had tears going down his face.

"Kara, please listen to me." He begged. I let go of his shirt and took a step back. "Kara, I've made a mistake and I'm so sorry. I never wanted to hurt you. I should've listen to you and not Arzaylea. You were always there for me when no one was. And I'm sorry and I'll always be sorry." He took off his guitar and dropped it into the sand.

"You broke me." I told him and he looked away. "You broke me heart." I wiped away my tears.

"I know what I did." He looked at me. His eyes are sad. "Maybe I can't fix it or you may never love me again, but I still love you and I'll never stop loving you." He confessed. I stood there in shock. I don't know what to say or do.

"Please don't go away, no one has ever stuck with me for so long before. I look at you and I'm" I stopped. I blurted out with no filter. It randomly came out. "Home" I whispered the last part.

"I'm home when I'm with you." Luke said to me.

"I love you." I said opening my arms.

"I love you too" Luke said pulling me into a kiss. Our lips smashed together. We pulled away. HE hugged me tight. "Did you cut your hair?" He asked. I laughed a little.

"Yes, do you like it?" I asked him.

"No." I pushed him away.

"For real?" I asked him.

"No, I love your hair." He said kissing me again. "I love you." He whispered in my ear.

"I love you."