Ikaw pa din yung iniisip ko hanggang ngayon. Pangalan mo pa din yung sinasagot ko sa kanila kapag tinatanong nila ko kung bakit ako malungkot at kung bakit din ako masaya. Hanggang ngayon.. pero alam natin na hindi na pwede..
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"Kailan mo na-realize na mahal mo na ko?"
"I don't know when.."
"Tss.. eh bakit ako naaalala ko pa kung kailan ako nainlove sayo! Alalahanin mo.. gusto kong malaman kung kailan.." Pamimilit ko sa kanya..
Hayy.. My Mr Gregg Avendano, hindi ka talaga sweet.
"Hindi ko alam exactly kung kailan.. I just woke up one morning and realized I was in love with you.. That's it."
"Ganun lang yun?"
"Yeah?"
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You don't have much of a sweet bone. Palagi kang seryoso. Sometimes you were a monosyllabic person which I hate the most. Pero being an understanding girlfriend I am, it's okay though as long as were still together.
Same question were still lingering onto me. I want to know the answer.. kaya tinanong kita ulit. Same question baby but different day and location. I was on a business trip with you. Tanda mo pa?
"Kailan mo narealize na inlove ka na sakin?"
"You were asking that a million of times.. so in order for your soul to keep quiet baby, I'll answer that.. urgh"
I didn't know kung napipilitan ka lang ba or what pero thank you for answering sincerely baby.
"I realized I was in love with you when you realize you don't love me anymore.."
What do you expect me to say? Di ko gets. Nakatingin lang ako sayo dahil hindi ko talaga ma-gets.
You chuckled.
"Nung iniwan mo ako dahil akala mo kami na ni Yana which is not true.. I realized I was deeply in love with you that time nung bigla ka na lang nawala. Kaya I believe when something's gone, you will know it's worth."
Ngumiti ka sakin. Ngumiti din ako sayo.
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Alam mo.. suot ko pa din yung kwintas na binigay mo sakin nung 3rd anniversary natin. It's still the same sparkling and elegant necklace.. You know what, it doesn't matter if this was the most expensive jewel in the world as long as you were the one who gave this to me.. mahalaga pa to sa lahat ng dyamante sa mundo.
"I'm sorry for the late greetings.. I was really really busy these past few days baby.."
Okay lang naman sakin kahit late mo na ko binati ng 'Happy Anniversary' eh. Okay lang talaga..
"Sus! Oks lang baby! Asan kiss ko?"
You chuckled. I love hearing your chuckle. Pampa-good vibes ko yun.
And then you gave me the most passionate kiss.. akala ko yun na yung gift mo sakin. Hehehe. Napapangiti mo ko ngayon habang sinusulat ko to baby.
Tapos bigla mong nilabas yung isang mahabang box na may kulay pula na lining.
"Talikod ka. Susuot ko sayo"
I can still feel your hands in my nape until now. I can still feel the cold feeling of the steel lingering on my skin. Napahawak tuloy ako sa leeg ko habang mag-isang ngumingiti.
"Thank you baby. Ang ganda sobra! Okay na sakin yung kiss mo eh, may bonus pa kong necklace! Spoiled na ko niyan"
You smiled and kiss me again.
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I remember the first time you introduce me to your parents. Kinakabahan ako ng todo nun. At first nagpaparinig lang ako sayo kung kailan mo ba ko dadalhin sa 'palasyo' niyo para makita ko na ang Mommy Queen ng Prince Charming ko. Alam ko, alam ko. Sasabihan mo na naman akong childish mag isip. Hmmpp.
"Don't be nervous. They'll like you, okay?"
I nodded.
We're together for almost two years pero nun mo pa lang ako ipapakilala sa mga magulang mo. Pero it's okay.. at least naisipan mo pa ding ipakilala ako. And thank you for that baby.
"Sure ka bang magugustuhan nila ako? Maganda ba ko?"
You smiled then gave me a quick kiss on the lips.
"Of course you are beautiful. Just be cool. Just be... confident."
Iba yung tingin nila sakin. Parang bawat kilos ko mali sa paningin nila. Ganun ba talaga sila? Hindi ba nila ko gusto? Naiiyak ako ngayon kapag naaalala ko.
"Wow, so after two years of hiding your illicit lover.. pinakilala mo na din siya. Hello iha"
Natakot ako sa tingin ng mama mo sakin. Parang illegal na magkaron ng ganitong mukha. Hindi mo din pala sakin sinabi kung bakit 'illicit lover' ang tawag niya sakin. Puntahan ko kaya siya at itanong? Err, wag na lang.
"From what university did you graduate iha?"
"I obtain scholarship in University of Perth ma'am."
"Ohh.."
You smiled and held my hand tighter. Napansin ko ding lumambot yung tingin sakin ng mama mo which is a good thing. Siguro yun na yung isa sa mga good shot ko sa mama mo baby. Hindi ako makapag sulat ng maayos kasi.. parang naramdaman ko ulit yung feeling na yun. Sabi mo sakin dati, it doesn't matter kung may harang sa estado ng buhay natin. Sorry ah, ang gulo na ng sulat ko.
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"Kanina ka pa sulat ng sulat dyan. Kumain ka na nga!"
"Teka lang po.. tatapusin ko lang to."
"Kung nagmumukmok ka pa din hanggang ngayon, tigilan mo na yan ah. Bumababa ka na iha"
Si papa istorbo. Pinapakain niya na ko. Akala siguro nila hanggang ngayon may balak pa din akong gutumin yung sarili ko. Hmm.. siguro hindi ko na uulitin yun. Ayaw mo ng payat sa babae di ba? Tanda ko pa yun eh, sabi mo wag akong mag-diet kasi panget sa paningin mo ang payat. Pshh
Wait lang ah. Promise babalik ako....
..sana ikaw din.
