Loved You To Death ~ Park Jimin [DISCONTINUED]

04 - Suspicious

-Jimin's POV-
"JIMIN!" Jin's sharp voice could be heard throughout the whole house.

"Shit. I'll come back." I said and pushed her slowly away from me and out of my arms feeling cold instantly. I went out the door leaving it a bit open so I can be on guard.

Wow, it sounds like I'm a dog guarding a fucking treasure or some shit. I have to save her, and give her the love and attention she never had gotten. Make her feel important to the world. Not fucking watch over her like I'm a cop and she's in prison. I'm not doing this to only keep her alive either, She means so much to me.

My train of thought came to an end as I got to where Jin stood by the stairs in the hall. "What the hell is it? Why'd you have to scream so loud?" I grunted slightly annoyed that he had to interupt our little cuddle session.

"Wow, Jimin. Why so annoyed? Anyways, that just helps to prove my point, really. Me and the other boys were just chatting about you and her. We think you're a bit too close to just be friends or at least not interested in eachother. Do you, do you like her Jimin? If so, god damn you're screwed because she is unstable and would never even let you get close." Jin finished and looked at me questioningly.

I just let out a small laugh. "Oh you guys. 'Not even let me get close' come on. She has told me secrets, no I'm not going to tell you them. And right now, that you interupted like the fucking mom you are, I was hugging her. We were cuddling even. " I finished with a big cocky but goofy smile for some unknown reason.
Jin just stood there and nodded, "but do you like her? Does Park Jimin actually have feelings for someone?" He gasped exaggerating.

I needed to think about it. I just stood there dumbfounded by his question as I honestly didn't know.

"No.- " I sighed deeply. "Or I don't know. The only reason I suddenly started to hang out with her so often is because she needs help with something. But have I caught feelings? I don't think so. I really don't know Jin."

"So you just came out from cuddling but you don't know? That sounds like a crush to me." Jin stated.

"No. That was just because we were having a tickle fight but it died down" I simple lied.

Jin nodded, "Yeah right, you tell yourself that buddy. Oh and by the way, I also came to tell you that if it ever turns out to be anything between you two, that we other's accept it. Like we do with V and Jungkook even though we all saw it coming." He patted my shoulder before leaving downstairs. I was left dumbfounded and alone.

Do I like her? I don't know. I guess she's always had my attention more than any other girl. Could be because she's the only female friend I've had.
'That we accept it' Jin's words repeated in my mind.
That means that one of my biggest fears is cleared up. None of the other boys like her. Good, because then it won't be drama.

I started my short walk back to her room. Not gonna lie, I was kinda longing to cuddle her up again, even though it's only been like three minutes. I went into her room and leaned up against the door and breathed out before I sat back on the bed beside her.

"Apparently Jin and the others are suspicious of us. They think we have a thing, like we're together or like eachother and all that so I just told him that you were going through some stuff that I helped you sort out. Nothing else. Didn't seem like he believed me though."

"Why does he need to believe that? Those shitheads can believe whatever they want." She quickly said, surprising me.

Oh, so I guess it's one sided then.

I quickly smiled at her to cover up my thoughts.

There is still a chance....I hope.

I was just laying beside her watching her phonescreen and her small fingers get more and more frustrated. After several attempts and failing at the same spot on the same level she started to get really annoyed. "Fuck me." She suddenly growled out in frustration and threw her phone on the bed. "Gladly." I said a little proud, it was meant more like dirty joke rather than a hint. I notice her sighing and slowly turning her head towards me so I put on my best rapeface.
When her face meets mine she's trying to be serious but fails and just hit my shoulder instead. I laughed at her actions before the silence returned as I watched her lay down and stare up at the ceiling in an attempt to calm down.

I want to calm you down. Well, I really just want to hug you, but we say it's for calming you down.

I stretched out my arms and wrapped them around her from the side for a couple of seconds before I pushed her body a little closer to my own. "Relax a little, ok? Frustration doesn't make things any easier." I say and patted her head. I took one of her hands and intertwined them before I reached my other hand up and started fiddling with her fingers.
"I know, but it's just a game." She sighed and surprisingly enough she gave in and snuggled closer to my chest.

It almost felt like an accomplisment to have her  voluntarily cuddle me.

Maybe I like her? No, I can't. I'm just cuddling her to make her not feel alone. But isn't that just using her? No. I don't know. Maybe I do like her? But does she like me? Or is she acting that way because she's lonely? But the comment she made when I told her what  Jin said? I really don't know.

A/N:
Hellooo. Sorry it's been a while. Fucking writers block. Sorry this was lame. It's more of a filler chapter than anything. Or idk

Also this is the first chapter I've written entirely on my phone, Idrk how to feel about it.
Sorry for any grammar mistakes, I'll just blame it on the autocorrect ;*