I Am Back !. maybe

Angel Car Crash

11.18.2012
I wake up and I look over at the time and it's 11:25 a.m.. It's also Sunday so I had to wait till 12 to buy any beer or wine. I get up and look around. Last night is a blur. I don't remember leaving the bar. I go into the bathroom, look into the mirror, and I had a hickey on my neck.

My eyes up wide and I look at it. I run back to bed, I see some one is under the cover. I slowly left the blank, he laid backwards but I know who it is by the tattoos. It's Phil Brooks, Mr.CmPunk. I feel disgusting with my self. I hurry up and get my things ready.

I want to get out of here before he wake up. I quickly put my hair in a messy bun, put my glasses on and get out of their. I get to the lobby, look for my car keys. I find them. I don't know where I am. So I go to the Hotel receptionist to ask.

AM-"Umm where am I?"
R-"What do you mean?"
AM-"What state I'm in?"
R-"North Caroline"

Fuck! How the hell did I end up here?

AM-"Okay Thanks ."
R-"Miss McMahon I don't think you should be driving."
AM-"Excuse me?"
R-"Never mind but be careful."

I walk out of their. Looking for my car. I find it and I go to the closet quickly store. When I get a phone call from my brother Shane.

OMac-"Hi"
AM-"What up?"
OMac-"You know I don't get in your life but your suppose to be at mine house."
AM-"I forgot."
OMac-"Angel where are you?"
AM-"Looking for the freeway."
OMac-"alright I'm let you go."
AM-"Alright I'll see you around."
OMac-"I hope so. Angel I love you."
AM-"I love you too Shane."

I hang up the phone but I get another phone call but it from CmPunk. I don't answer. I want him to leave me alone. It's snowing really bad so I pull over to a Denny's. I go in to eat because im kinda hungry. I go over to the waitress.

AM-"How long will it take too have a table ready?"
W-"About 20 minutes."
AM-"Oh Lord. I'm just one though."
W-"I'm sorry ma'am"

"She sit with me if she want."

And suddenly I hear a voice that I hadn't heard in so long. I don't want to get my hopes up I slowly turn and It's Jeff Hardy. The love of my life. My eyes open wide. I nod my head at her and sit in front of him. She brings me a coffee and Jeff orders my favorite meal. We sit in silence until they bring his and mine food out.

JH-"How you been?"
AM-"Umm I been better. How about you?"
JH-"Fine."
AM-"Are you still wrestling?"
JH-"Yeah for TNA. What are you doing?"
AM-"While I'm just traveling."
JH-"Modeling?"
AM-"A little."
JH-"Angelica"
AM-"Yeah."
JH-"I'm sorry."
AM-"You going to run out on me again?"
JH-"Not until I tell you everything."
AM-"I'm don't understand."
JH-"You will...
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I had a daughter."

My heart drops as I hear those words I stop eating.

JH-"She two years ago and a couple months."
AM-"Wait our wedding was about two year ago."
JH-"She was born two weeks before our wedding."

I want to slap him but I don't because of where we are. I can't help but cry. He put his hand on my shoulder and I knock it off. I grab had his hand and when I novice he has a wedding ring on.

AM-"Your married?"
JH-"Yes. I am."

I get up and leave. He comes after me

JH-"Angel please listen to me!"
AM-"i don't had nothing left to say."
JH-"But I do."

I get in my cars and I can't put my keys in the engine. They fall in the ground and I look at him. He whips a tear off my face. I push of his hand off my faces.

AM-"You can't do that !"
JH-"Please listen to me!"
AM-"I'll give you 5 minutes."

I finally turn on my car. But I stay to listen.

JH-"I got married to Beth."
AM-"Please move"

I turn to back up but he doesn't me.

JH-"Angelica please. Just know you didn't do anything wrong. It was all me. Not your dad or Stephanie. It was all me."
AM-"No it's my fault."
JH-"No its not Angelica."
AM-"Yes it is. I left my family to be with you and now look at me. IM A FUCKING MESS!"
JH-"I'm sorry Angelica. I never met to hurt you!"
AM-"FUCK . YOU JEFF!"

I pull off and I call Stephanie home phone. Im going to beg her for forgiveness but it send me straight to voicemail.

AM-"Stephanie please pick up.
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Stephanie I'm sorry.
I'm was stupid for leaving you guy. Stephanie please forgive me.
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I was wrong about everything."

I continue crying. I'm driving and the road has ice.

AM-"Stephanie Please pick up. I honestly don't where I am.
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Stephanie I was so wrong. I should have listened to you and dad.
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Stephanie everything hurts. My head, stomach and most of all life.
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Stephanie please pick up!
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Stephanie I'm SORRY!
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Please forgive me.
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My life has been a mess without my family but I was to stupid to realize it."

I suddenly see a deer and I hit the brake. But the car doesn't stop. The car continues to slide. The road is completely ice. I start screaming. I still had my foot on the brake. Suddenly I feel I'm off the road. The car have flip over.

My head broke the window. I'm still awake. I felt everything but I can't fell my legs. I take my sit belt off and fall to the ground I feel glass in my hair. I'm bleeding. I can't move. I'm scared. I need help but I can't yell. I can't talk. I'm mute. This is where I'm going to die.

I had nothing more to live for. My life had some good time and bad time. The last two year had been hell. I lost my self completely. And there's no one to blame but me. I let myself get this way. I could have move past it. I could have better myself. I chose to self destroy. I chose to be alone and petty myself.

Everything goes dark but suddenly I feel someone pull me out. I try hard to open my eyes and it's the Hotel receptionist from the morning. I'm out the car. I see the sun and clouds. She crying as on the phone calling 911.

She telling them that I'm hurt. That I can't move. She told them that she took me out the car. I look up that the sky and I ask god if he lets me live that I would better myself and never love again. Suddenly I can't keep my eyes open no more. But I hear everything the receptionist is saying.

R-"Please stay here Ms.McMahon.
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Help is coming!"

Help is coming are the lost words I hear until everything goes black and the world muted.