dumb dumb • seulmin

5

It was past ten o'clock when I finished my shift at the ice cream shop. As soon as I dropped my younger sister home, I immediately drove over to Seulgi's apartment.

Yeri had given me her address. My heart was beating heavily against my chest as I parked the car in front of the building. Now that I was here, what was I going to do? I gathered all my courage and walked up to her floor. The third floor, apartment 36.

I let out a couple of deep breaths before I found the strength to knock on her front door.

Her appearance surprised me. Her hair had been curled at some point and was now pulled back into a loose ponytail. She was wearing her pajamas which were covered in brown bears. A pair of large glasses was perched upon her nose. She looked undeniably attractive.

The spoon that was hanging from her mouth fell to the floor. Her jaw dropped. "Jimin." She said, incredulously.

"Hi." I breathed. "You're probably wondering what I'm doing here." I rushed out. My nerves were killing me. Man up Jimin!

She slowly nodded the confusion still visible in her eyes.

I raked a hand through my hair, "Can I come in?"

She stepped aside to give me access.

"Thanks," I said as I took a few steps forward. My heart was beating crazily against my chest and I wondered whether coming here tonight was a big mistake. I hastily took in my surroundings. Her apartment was small but had a comfortable atmosphere. It was slightly crowded with all the furniture cramped together in such a tiny space. I almost felt like a giant in her apartment.

"Sit down," Seulgi said softly as she gestured to the couch which was buried under fleece blankets. The TV was on but the sound was muted.

I lowered myself onto the couch and spotted a half-empty tub of ice cream on the coffee table. I noticed that it was from the ice cream shop where I worked at. I had to bite the inside of my cheek to keep me from smiling. She was eating the ice cream that I had scooped for her! Damn, I was being a total dork.

Seulgi came to sit beside me. She cleared her throat and tucked a stray strand of hair behind her ear before looking at me. "...S-So, what brings you here?" she slightly stammered.

I turned my body slightly towards her so that I could look into her eyes. Okay Jimin, this is it. "What is one plus one?"

She stared at me, puzzled, "What?"

"What's one plus one?" I ask her again, my heart thudding loudly against my chest.

"...Two?" She said uncertainly, drawing out the word.

I took that opportunity to brush my lips softly against hers. I felt her freeze in shock.

I slowly pulled back, afraid that she was going to punch me in the face.

She was staring at me, the surprise visible in her eyes. Her lips formed a small 'o'.

"I like you, Seulgi," I told her sincerely, my cheeks turning warm. I finally did it. As the words had left my lips I felt immense lighter. Was this what confessions did to you?

But then the lightness disappeared as she sat there, still frozen.

Crap, I hadn't even thought about what it would do to me if she didn't return my feelings. Dread washed over me as I continued to stare at her.
"I've liked you for a while now," I started as she was still gazing at me with her clear beautiful eyes.

"In fact, I've liked you for over four years from the moment you said 'excuse me', because I was blocking the doorway to class like a total idiot. I've liked you since you flashed your pretty smile in thanks at me. But I thought that you'd never notice me. You don't know how happy I was when I found out that we ended up going to the same college, even ending up in the same class. I like you so much that I'm suffering from withdrawal if I don't speak to you at least once a day. I like you so much that I've... fallen in love with you." I confessed to her, baring my soul.

After a moment of silence, Seulgi started to move again. She blinked several times, her brown eyes still holding my gaze. I could tell she was hesitant. She wasn't sure whether I was telling the truth.

It hurt. I didn't want her to think that I was just saying these things. I really meant them, with all my heart. It was crazy, the effect she had on me.

Her eyes seemed to search mine for a while before she closed hers. After a second she let out a deep breath. "...Jimin."

I took her hands in mine, fearing her rejection.

She broke out with a smile. It was the most beautiful smile I had ever seen.

My heart fluttered as I stared at her.

Her cheeks flushed as she spoke, "I've always noticed you Jimin. You're always so kind to everyone and you're always so friendly. Even though I'm so shy and soft-spoken, you always listen to what I have to say. That means a lot to me. I fell for you pretty quickly, and it always scared me - how my body seems to react when I'm around you. My heart does crazy things when you get near and I don't know how to deal with that... that's why I've always tried to keep my distance."

The words sunk in. Kang Seulgi likes me. Kang Seulgi has always liked me. Even though I was a fool and an idiot, she likes me.

"Jimin?"

I couldn't stop the wide grin from spreading across my face. "Yes?"

"What color are my eyes?"

I blinked at her as her eyes entranced me, "Brown-," but she cut me off before I could finish.

Her lips pressed softly against mine and I couldn't help melting into her. She kissed me! Oh my god. Seulgi was kissing me and I was kissing her back. I wrapped my arms around her, eliminating the distance between us.

I faintly tasted the green tea ice cream and knew for a fact that it would forever be my favorite flavor.

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