Today is going to be one of those days with out him talking to me. I wish he knew how much he Means to me, if he did I wonder if he'd judge me. If he'd ever talk to me again. I won't be able to survive with out him he's helped me so much, with reasons I don't wish to say.
I just want to tell him everything. I want him to myself. He says I'm his but... I don't feel different when I'm around him now vs. before I WANT TO SCREAM I FUCKING LOVE HIM FOR GODS SAKE! But that will never happen, well... For now good bye diary I'll talk more later.
~Carter _ the girl scared of feelings ~
