Behind these hazel eyes.

Chapter 1

"What are you talking about?" asked Daniel sadness showing all over his face.

" I said I'm breaking up with you I'm sorry. I just can't deal with a boyfriend right now." I said honestly

I can't believe I'm actually doing this! Daniel and I have been going out for a year now, but I'm just so screwed up how can I manage a boyfriend when I can't even manage myself?

"Chloe don't do this I love you don't break up with me. Please."

The tears started welling up in my eyes. I loved him too but I just can't tell him whats wrong; no one would understand.

"I'm sorry I just can't..." I ran off leaving the heartbroken Daniel behind. I couldn't keep the tears in anymore when I reached my car. I broke down and just couldn't make them stop. It was like a water fall down my face, but I knew this was the right thing to do.

After the tears calmed them selves down I started my car (my brand new green kia soul) and drove home. The whole ride I couldn't get Daniel's sad face out of my mind. Was this actually the right thing to do? Should I turn back and say I was wrong and that I want him back? No! Chloe stay strong. This is the right thing. I repeated that the whole drive.

When I got home I went straight up to my room put on my favorite PJ's and blasted Dear Agony by Breaking Benjamin. I've been listening to this song for the past month. When I wake up. When I drive to school. At lunch. On the way home. When I'm alone. The list goes on and on. I think the song expresses my true self underneath this fake happiness.

At times I wonder if I'll ever be the same again.

When I'm at school I'm the same old Chloe but when I'm alone I can't help but cry and think I shouldn't be here.

I think my mom is starting to figure it out but I think she's too scared to ask. There's no worry thinking my dad will notice. He's not here. He's off living with his other better family. The one he left my brother, my mom and I for. I don't hate him, It's not that I don't like him either, truth is I just don't know him. He abandon us when I was 8 and when my brother was 3.

I'm now 18 and he still hasn't contacted me, but thats ok I've been completely fine without him (well sort of) my brother Noah is perfectly fine with him gone, he never really knew him he was to young so it didn't really affect him.

I snapped out of my thoughts when I heard someone banging on my door.

"Come in!"

"Hey honey dinners ready" my mom said.

"Okay thanks but I'm not really hungry"

"Are you okay sweetie?"

"Umm, actually not so much. I kinda just broke up with Daniel"

She gasped. " Oh honey, but I thought you really liked this one?" she said as she came and sat next to me.

" I did, I still do but we just werent working out lately" I shrugged.

She wrapped her arms around me and gave me a giant rib crushing hug.

"If you wanna talk I'm always here. Okay? It can be anything at all." She gave me a reassuring squeeze.

"Alright thanks mom but I think I'll be okay" I said giving her my best practiced smile.

"Alright, I'm going to save you a plate in case you get hungry later, okay?"

"Yeah okay." I probably won't eat it but I'll give her the satisfaction of thinking I'm going too. I'll probably just throw it out while shes sleeping.

Once she left my room I went over to my bed reached under my pillow and grabbed my notebook. When ever I want to vent about something I write it in this notebook. Its a dark green leather back notebook. My Socialogy teacher advised us all to get one. I think I'm one out of the few who did.

I start writing about today and the sadness I saw in Daniels eyes.

Am I a bad person? Did I do the wrong thing?

I mentally slap myself in the face. NO! Chloe you did the right thing. Your going through some stuff and he deserves better then this mess you call yourself.

After i finished writing I went to the bathroom and took a nice hot shower. I love hot showers even though i look like a lobster afterwards it relises all the tension in my neck in shoulders if i stand there long enough.

I start singing 'The lonely by Christina Perri'

I finish up and go to my room. I change into my biggest tshirt and my favorite underwear and crawl into bed.

I have to go to school tomorrow and I'm probably gunna get trampled by everyone. They'll all probably ask me about Daniel. Ughh well this what happens when someone dumps her extremley cute boyfriend whos quarter back of the schools football team.

Guess will see what happens in the morning.

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Hey! well this is my first story and i think its going good so far but please give me feedback!!

~ chloe :)