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Hello there , my name is Amanda ...I have 2 brothers and a dad . my mom died a few ago back when my dad was starting to be an alcoholic ... He's the one that caused my mom's death ... Chocked her to death .... You may wonder how he got away with it so heres the story.. It was late July 2013 ... My dad and mom had been arguing for the past week ... This is very unusual for them ... They are the sweetest ppl alive ... I sit in my room covering my head as they yell back and forth about something I cannot understand... My brothers come in and tell me ..."do you understand what's going on?", I answer and tell them "no, I'm too scared...I can't make out a word ... ", they start to explain to me that dad has started drinking heavily and it upsets my mother ... *thud* we hear coming from the living room where my parents were arguing... We ran to see what's going on and see my dad on top of my mother ... I scream "STOPPP" and I start balling my eyes out .. This was a horrific site... My brother ran to the house phone and dialed 911 ... As my brother started the call ,my dad whipped around aggressively..." you put that goddamn phone down you worthless piece of shit..." my dad snatches the phone and bust it on the floor ... My dad panics and hides my mother's body and tells us to keep our mouths shut or he'll do the same to us . since we were scared ,we all listened and my dad sent us to our rooms. 3 years later and the memory haunts me .. Why didn't I tell ..I still ask that to myself today ..I'm 16 now and I'm very anti-social, I don't get along with anyone and I hate anything and everything ... I don't see the point in this world to live..
I feel like going insane ... Everyday I wish my father would just die ... I almost have the guts to do it myself ...the bastard deseres it anyways
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