I've never had been the type to write my feelings in a notebook. It makes me look sensitive and that's the last thing I need people to think of me. If anybody ever catches me writing I'll kill myself.
*Bang on Bedroom Door.
"Amber get your dumbass out here right now."
Oh I forgot my name is Amber.
"Just what the fuck are you thinking when you're at school?"
"What do you mean?"
"Yunno what your mother means now answer the question for god sake."
"I think about my work. I think about how I wanna get the fuck out of there. Why?"
"Watch your mouth. I got a call from your principle today. Wanna explain that."
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"Maybe if I take you to the back room you'll understand. Now answer your mothers question."
"I don't know!"
"That's it you little ungrateful bitch!"
He pulled me into the back room. He threw me onto the bed. I already knew what was going to happen, I can't believe my mother allowed this to happen to me. She'd watch him do this to me. By the way, he's my moms boyfriend.
"You gonna tell us what happened or not."
"Please I don't know why she called you!"
"I guess that's a no. Michelle close the door."
"But......"
"Close the fucking door!"
My mom did as she was told. How could she let such a low life into her life. Into mines. It had only been 5 years since my dad passed away, when she met Robert. He was cool at first, my little brother loved him. But then after awhile he began to become abusive towards my mom. Then towards us. It's like my mother is scared to leave him. He threatened her one time before.
"Come here princess ima give you something that'll make you remember what happened"
He pulled down his pants, then his boxers. Showing nothing but his penis.
"Get in your favorite position."
"Please Robert not again, I really don't know what happened."
"Do what the fuck I say!"
He caressed my face and wiped my tears.
"You think I wanna hurt you? Huh?"
He shoved my face into his penis. Oh god I want my dad.
"Do it!"
"Please Robert!"
"DO IT BITCH!"
I had no choice I didn't want him to hurt me. I'm still healing from the last incident.
"Good girl."
He is the sickest human being I've ever met. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him.
"Okay get up. Now I believe you. Don't cry baby girl."
He left my room. My mouth felt dirty as I ran to the bathroom to throw up and brush my teeth.
Later that night
"Are you okay Amb?"
"No Mikey. We have to leave here. We have to."
"But what about mommy?"
"Be honest has mommy thought about us?"
"No but mom-"
"Mikey are you coming with me or not? I'm leaving in 30 with or without you. I refuse to leave without you. I refuse to leave you in this house. So go get packed and don't ask any questions."
"Okay okay please don't leave me."
"I won't now hurry."
We had our minds set to leave. The only thing was is that we didn't know where to go. When my mother met Robert she moved us from New York to Nevada. All of our family is in New York we have no contact or anything.
"Hurry up!"
"Okay I'm coming."
"You packed your room."
"I'll put some things back."
"Hurry Mikey and please be quiet."
I just knew that Mikey was going to make a lot of noise so I closed his bedroom door. I began humming around the house like I usually do. I headed to the living room and put my things in the closet by the front door. Robert was on the couch sleep. The couch is also by the front door.
"Mikey please be quiet he's right there."
"Okay okay. Let's go now."
"Okay come on."
I cracked open the door, I'm so surprised that it didn't make any noise. Robert sat there sleep. Snoring and all. I hated to leave my mom like this but she didn't want to leave. She didn't want to escape. The needles were her escape. I whispered "I love you mom" quietly. Even though she was in the next room. Mikey & I ran for it. Mikey had at least 4 bags which were all clothes and food. He's a smart kid after all I guess. I packed my clothes, notebook, my laptop and some food also. The French police made a statement the other day that if you were under the age of 18 and out past 9:00 without an adult you will be detained. So I took precaution, Mikey and I had to be really careful of we could get caught and have to go back home. I can't believe I just said the word home. That is not my home. That is HELL.
"Amber I'm cold."
"I am too Mikey."
I seen the look on his face he seemed really sad.
"Maybe this wasn't a good idea. Let's turn around."
"Mikey, do you want to be beaten every time you leave a cup in the sink without rinsing it out?"
"Well no."
"I didn't think so. So let's keep moving and we'll warm up."
"Okay okay."
Mikey and I have been running for at least an hour. I could tell Miley was starting to slow down and get tired. He became weak, I had no money for us to get food. By the time we got 50 miles from home our food was all gone. Poor Mikey, what did I drag him into?
"Amber I can't feel my feet anymore."
Mikey began to fall so I had to catch him.
"Cmon lets find a building a rest."
I had to help Mikey walk, which was very difficult from all the bags we both already had to carry. I knew Mikey was too weak and yet I pushed him. I just can't go back to that house. Like I just can't go back to that house.
"There is a building!"
"Shhh okay come on."
We approach the building dark and wet from the rain of last night. I can hear thunder and see lightning. Mikey and I had no choice but to go inside. I had a flashlight so we can both see. It starts to really pour. Mikey starts crying, I tell him to calm down before nearby neighbors him. Mikey began to calm down and eventually he fell asleep. I also began to feel very drowsy and began to dose off when I heard a Big Bang and heard men yelling out names. I woke Mikey up and we began to find places to hide in the building. Eventually one man caught me. I told Mikey to run, but soon after he came back with a man. When the men lead us outside I seen a ton of cop cars. I just knew then that they were policeman.
"Did you find the dog?"
An old man came out the house across the street from the building we were in.
"No sir there were no dogs just 2 kids."
The police officer turned to us.
"Now what are you guys doing out here in the middle of the-"
"SERGEANT! We need you here now."
"One moment kids."
The policeman begin to conversate while other policeman are still searching the building. The sergeant started walking back towards us with his head down.
"Amber and Micheal are your names?"
I answered "Yes, how do you know?"
"Your mother reported you two missing hours ago. We've been looking all over until the old man across the street reported hearing weird noises and we just thought that maybe you guys were here."
"Well you were right but we can't go back home." Mikey said.
"And why not?" The sergeant answered.
Mikey was just about to speak but I interrupted him.
"Because we um told our haven't gotten our things back from you yet."
"Oh well of course but we're taking you home. Because now this is a crime."
"We didn't do anything wrong!" Mikey began to cry.
"You two ran away from home."
"Amber tell him why we did it. You always said tell the truth tell him they can help us!"
"Is there something that I need to know Amber."
I sat there frozen contemplating on telling the officer.
"Okay! Okay!
Wanna know if Amber tells their reason for not going home you'll have to read the next part.
