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it wasn't just any normal dream. i, jeon jungkook, always had a weird dream. a dream that is different from any other person. sometimes, it becomes a dream that'll give you some thrills when you wake up. in my 18 years of living in this planet, i am sure i wasn't even exploring various kinds of things in earth. like going on the other side of the planet, hanging out with friends, playing with animals, eating delicious food, bonding together with family. its because i have no one. i have literally nobody.
you wonder what i always do, huh? well i have done at least 5% of what people normally do on their everyday basis. i am indeed living under a roof, but i dont have much food to eat and i would skip a meal everyday, since i have unsufficient budget to buy some stuff. as you may know, i am one of those emo people, which rarely smiles. i am sometimes suffering not just starvation, but also dehydration. since i am just some kind of junk that is too dumb to realize what is even the purpose of living in this world. i have nobody.
but there's this one particular guy whose name is ㅡ well i dont honestly know, who's always creeping in my weird dreams (not in time for exo monster ppl). but im pretty sure he's part of the reason why my dreams are weird. but i dont know why i can feel my palms getting sweaty whenever i see him ㅡ in my dreams.
you may be thinking, "oh my gosh, jeon jungkook why cant you make friends?" well to be honest, i did not learn how to associate with others. because since birth, i have been living with my grandma. and after she died, i have no one now. i didn't even had the chance to ask where my parents are right now. nobody even cares right?
about that guy in my dreams, i am going to tell you how we met huh? well particularly, i have been starting dreaming with him, since i am all alone.
flashback;first dream with him
i closed my eyes. visions are black and dark. i tried to think of something cheerful. i tried to think of me in a park. guess what showed up ㅡ a lonely park which only had me as a visitor. i sat on a bench and tried to think on all of my problems. you can't do it alone, jeon. i sighed. i tried to talk.
"how can i do this if im all alone? i am even alone here. i guess dreams always tells the truth." i spoke as if anyone could even hear me and i sat on one the swings, and i swayed it a bit.
"i can help you, kookie~" a cheerful voice suddenly appeared which made me jump a little of surprise.
i looked to my side and saw an unfamiliar guy who's sitting on the swing beside me. "e-excuse me, when did you get here? how did you get here? what's your name? how did you know me? i thought i was all alone here? wait i am always alone." i looked on my lap as i said the last sentence.
"hehe~ first, i'll keep my name as a secret and i got here since ㅡ i dont know, who cares. and i know your name since i looked on the name on the back of your hoodie like duh." the guy chuckled.
"oh im sorry ㅡ i have always been dumb since from the start." i said as his head tilted a little, being confused.
"i have not seen somebody dumb before, though."
"yeah, yeah. but here he is. sitting beside you." i whispered the last sentence.
"i can hear you." he softly chuckled.
after that, there was a long silence between us.
"hey kookie, i have one joke. hehe~" he said, breaking the long silence.
"wh-what is it?"
"joke." he laughed.
"wait what? i don't get it." i tilted my head in confusion.
"don't chu get it? ㅡ aweee come on kookie, ㅡ one joke = joke, pfft ㅡ haha" he said between his laughs.
i took a moment to realize, "ohhhh, i get it." he kept on laughing.
he halted from laughing, "don't you know how to laugh? nor smile?"
again, i tilted my head in confusion.
"awee cute." i blushed a little as he said the compliment. he stood in front of me and bended a little so that we have the same face level. i cant believe our face were just only centimeters away. i blushed, this time more tint of pink. he reached his fingers on to my face and dragged the corner of my lips, upward.
"there ya go. hehe~" he chuckled with his boxy grin. which made me grin, showing my teeth.
"oh my god!" he gasped, covering his mouth.
"wh-what did i do something wrong? o-oh god im so sorrㅡ" he cutted me off.
"your teeth are so cute~ you're like a bunny~ aweee~" he fanboyed.
" can you smile for me again? this time, with more teeth?" he showed his puppy eyes which made me grin, again.
he squealed. "oh my god!~ my little bunny~" he hugged me and the impact was too hard and i was falling to the ground. i thought the impact was painful but i was wrong. it was like the exact same opposite. i felt like i landed on something soft like, bed. but nah, still the ground. and there we were. laying on the ground as if its the normal-est thing to do.
he snuggled closer on my chest, his arms still circling around my neck. i looked at him and he was at peace, closing his eyes. i could feel my heartbeat going at a fast pace like it was being loud and im sure he heard it.
"is your heart beating? ㅡ beating for me?" he asked while his eyes closed.
i blushed furiously. aish, what am i feeling. i could feel butterflies dancing in my stomach. what exactly is this feeling?! "i ㅡ i dont know." i even hesitated on answering.
"you may not know now~" he said leaving me clueless of what he said.
after that, a long silence again.
"hey, may i ask what is your name, actually?" i asked.
silence.
i looked over to him and he was peacefully sleeping. i was about to sleep too until...
RING! RING!
damn, that's the sound of my alarm. i opened my eyes and there i saw the reality. a dark reality. my worst nightmare. i got up from my bed and i saw something fell on my hoodie, a thin piece of paper.
i picked it up and read it,
"my name's kim taehyung."
