Skinny b**ches

Forget about it

From a young age we are brought up with the phrase "forgive and forget".

No matter what, we are expected to brush it off , and pretended it never happened . Whether it be petty squabbles with our siblings, or near on domestic abuse with our significant others. We have all been conditioned to simply let it go; consequently we are left blaming ourselves for the confrontations.

Self hatred is the most efficient way of achieving self destruction.

Forgive and forget had become so relevant , that many people don't see bullshit it radiates...or the truth it engulfs and conceals.

Socialisation is the main reason for every single problem our world faces. Because its how little monsters are created. And were all just messed up little broken monsters.

Everyone is selfish. everyone only has their own best interests at heart. Yes you can lie to yourself and say you care more about others than yourselves, but i bet you still lie in bed at night, thinking about all the bad things in your life, and feeling utterly sorry for yourself.

Because life has never, will never and can never be perfect.

Even from a young age i had body image problems. i was exposed to the internet at the age of 5, and had full , unsupervised access to view whatever my little heart desired (True, perhaps not the best parental decision, but trust me, it most certainly isn't the worst my parents have made). And that really was my first mistake.

I remember signing up to a website called Stardoll at the age of 6. Suddenly, i was utterly obsessed with little digital dolls who you could dress exactly how you wanted. They truly where the most beautiful little things i had ever seen!  I could express all the colours and feelings i wanted into my own personal little doll, who lived in her own little virtual world , with her own perfect little dolly friends. 

Unfortunately, it wasn't all good. Within 3 weeks of me getting my stardoll, i had already began receiving hate about my doll. My imaginary, completely digitally assembeled little doll! this doll was a direct representation of what young me saw herself as...and this bully was judging and putting her down. And in my young, impressionable little head, they were saying those things at me instead, and about me as a person. Instantly it was no longer my little doll, it was everyone else's. Everyone else's doll to pick and prod and scream names at. 

I stopped going on the website, because it scared me. It scared me that i couldn't be myself without somebody poking holes out about my individuality, or pointing out little things that they didn't approve. 

Finally i was free of hassle. 

Until it started happening in real life, at school.