no control [h.s.]

11

Somehow I always ended up in these situations with no clue how I got here. Actually, I definitely had a clue. I just chose to ignore my bad decisions that brought me here.

This time, my bad decision had landed me in Harry's lap in front of his giant mahogany desk, computer speakers blaring the sounds of high pitched, over dramatic female moans.

My eyes were glued to the screen as I watched a built man thrust into a big-breasted blonde woman over and over again. Her moans were dragged out far too long to be real, everything was for show. How did men fall for this?

"Pay attention," Harry snapped, peering over my shoulder to look me in the eye, gauging my reaction to the video playing before us.

"I can't," I sighed. I was bored to say the least. Instead of 'turning me on' like the video was intended for I was bored as hell. All my life my mother explained sex to me as something so sacred and special, only to be shared by two loving partners. These people were strangers to each other. The thought disgusted me.

"I hate to break it to you, baby girl, but you're basically looking into your future right now."

I was having second thoughts about living here, especially knowing his intents to turn me into the new star of his company. Actually, I was having third, fourth, even fifth thoughts. The fear that I had made a huge mistake by moving into his home was always looming over my head. However, in order to stay away from my mother and make my own money I knew what I had to do. I was desperate.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when Harry's hands crept up my thighs and under my dress, fingers inching closer and closer to the hem of my underwear.

"What are you doing?" I asked, voice quivering in confusion.

"Don't be scared, I just want to try something," he spoke softly, searching my eyes for permission. I nodded, finally agreeing to let him have his way with me. Both hands hooked into the sides of my panties and dragged them down my legs slowly. I kicked them off as they reached my ankles, allowing him to spread my legs open as my body lay on top of him in his desk chair. "Now watch as I touch you."

I did as he said, focusing on the way the woman moaned as the man thrusted into her. It didn't really appeal to me since the man wasn't Harry, but knowing it was him touching me exhilarated me.

Suddenly his fingers were on me, my most sensitive part, rubbing figure eights on my c.lit. I moaned loudly, almost jumping off his lap in blind pleasure. This almost felt as good as having his tongue on me. He slipped a finger in slowly, trying his hardest to be gentle.

"Feel me, baby. Imagine that's me pounding into you, fucking you so good," he grunted, moving his fingers in and out of my entrance. With his other hand he groped my chest, flicking my nipple in between his thumb and forefinger. I threw my head back in ecstasy, all the feelings of pleasure coursing throughout my body at once.

I came quickly as I imagined having Harry's body hovering over me, fucking me roughly. I wanted so badly for this to actually happen, had I not been so scared to lose my virginity in such an meaningless way.

"I think you might like porn, baby," he laughed, eyes crinkling in the corners. It was a beautiful sight to see him happy. If only it were this way all the time.

***

"Eden," Harry snapped in order to gain my attention, annoyance laced throughout his tone.

"Yes?" I replied meekly, afraid of his tone.

"I want you to accompany me to work today."

"Why?" I asked in confusion. It had nothing to do with what I would eventually be doing within his business. He handled things that were higher up.

"Because I said so, now stop with all the questions," he rolled his eyes. He had a habit of doing that often, and to be quite honest it annoyed me more than anything. He was either extremely nice or extremely rude, there was no in between. I had to be cautious not to upset him at all times.

I wasn't sure what to wear, but Harry assured me it didn't really matter. He told me the people in there varied from formal business wear to see-through fishnet jumpsuits. I guess that's what you could expect out of the porn industry.

I threw on a pair of black jeans and a white blouse, paired with some black flats. My hair was left down in waves and I applied some mascara to my eyes. I couldn't do much more, for Harry was already rushing me out of the door.

"You look beautiful," he surprised me by saying, especially since I wasn't even dressed up. I blushed as I thanked him, and was even more surprised when he held open the passenger side door of the car open for me. His mood swings confused me, but in this one instance I wasn't exactly complaining.

When we arrived at the building, he led me through the main lobby and to the elevators. Along the way many women said their hello's and tried to flirt with him, but none of them got any reply other than a quick nod of the head. That is, until we stepped into the elevator, running into the most gorgeous woman I had ever seen. She was tall, all legs. Had a glowing tan that made her light up the room. Long brown hair that flowed to the middle of her back in loose curls. Bright blue eyes like the color of the sky. I was instantly envious.

"Tanya," he smirked. "Long time no see."

"Mr. Styles," she grinned. "I've missed you."

He released my hand and embraced her in a tight hug, then pulled back just enough to kiss her perfect lips. It wasn't just a friend kiss, it was more. They had history, I could tell just by witnessing their lust filled kiss. I could have died in that very moment.

They suddenly pulled away from each other, realizing I was there. She peered over his shoulder at me and cleared her throat as she began to talk.

"Who's this?" she smiled, no traces of malevolence to be found in her expression.

"This is Eden, my new star," he smirked.

"I remember when you said the same thing about me," she giggled, reminiscing about a time shared between the two.

"And you were my star, weren't you?" he winked.

"Oh yes, how could I forget?" she flirted back. I wanted to puke.

"We should catch up. I'll pick you up tonight around seven?"

"Sounds like a plan."

And just like that, my heart dropped into the pit of my stomach.

***

DID YALL MISS ME

CAUSE I SURE MISSED ME

jk but hey !! this probably sucked but whatever at least I updated finally !! it almost took me a whole year how disappointing