dear wonwoo//wonwoo ff

020216

February 2, 2016

wonwoo,
in the end of december, i was diagnosed with the hanahaki disease. the hanahaki disease or hanahaki byou(花吐き病), is disease of the human system that causes me to cough up flowers due to severe one-sided love. Its infection route is through contact with vomited flowers. I have thorns growing in my abdomen. they've been digging into my internal organs.

the only cure was for you to love me back. the doctor said, if i could get you to love me back within two months, i shall be cured but i couldnt. i failed. i have threw up different flowers of every color, but none that said u love me. i'm sorry. i love you. goodbye.
"gomawo, mianhae, saranghae."
~Kim Hanari
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i closed my journal, placing it on my nightstand. "tae?" i called out. he came running into my room. "yes, baby sis?" he asked. "give this to wonwoo. jeon wonwoo. arasso?" i said, handing him the journal. he nodded before taking the journal.

"tae...?" i called out again. he hummed in response. "i have the hanahaki disease. i'm dying." i trembled. "i know." he said before placing the journal on the nightstand. "the doctor said you could die in your sleep." he said, laying down next to me. i nodded my head.

"tae. theres a list of people and a stack of cards in my dresser. if i dont make it tonight, i want you to give them to the addressed people." i told him. he nodded again, pulling me into his arms before closing the light.

"tae, saranghae." i told him. "i love you too, baby sis." he replied as his voice cracked. i felt tears falling down my face and off of taehyung's face. i closed my eyes, not knowing i might not wake up ever again.
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