change; J.R.

anger

westons pov

we were sitting at the edge of the pool sticking our feet in the water.

"can't wait for all our adventures were gonna have." says
"gosh im gonna miss talia when she moves to Virginia." said stacie as i snapped my head towards her.

"what!"

talia and jacob looked at me as i walked towards them.

"how come you didn't tell me you were leaving!" i yelled as she flinched.

"im sorry, i just didn't know how to tell you." she said softly.

"dude calm down, she was gonna tell you eventually." says jacob as i give him a stink eye.

"yeah and 'eventually' was probably gonna be a week before she leaves!"

"weston im sorry." says talia as i roll my eyes.

i fold my arms together as her and jacob stand up.

"bye weston!" says jacob rudely as he grabs him and talias things.

talias pov

"i should have told him." i say as me and jacob walk down the hallway.

"you were gonna tell him, its fine talia."

"no its not." i say looking down as we see my hotel room door in sight.

"what if he never talks to me again." i say as i stop and look at jacob.

"oh he will, and if he doesn't than he's a real idiot."

jacob shows a slight smile and he kisses my forehead.

"bye talia, dont worry so much. im here." he says as he walks away leaving me with a smile.

i unlock the door and take my drenched towel off and put it on the floor of the bathroom.
i grab a oversized sweatshirt and undergarments and walk back into the bathroom.

i get myself undressed and turn on the water, then i hop in. i quickly showered and walked to my bed and shoved my hand under the mattress and felt around and the coolness filled around my hand. then i felt something hard as i pulled it out and found a book that had

"hannas diary."

plastered on the front. i opened it and flipped a few pages until i sae one that caught my eye.

"it sucks doesn't it? talking to somebody on a daily basis knowing you can never have them. how they make you feel inside, and how that feeling never goes away? gosh it really makes you feel butterflies when they make you feel so special. then that one day, it all changes. they start to talk to you more than they usually do but about relationships, they say "i love you." but then the second your gone they break your heart with a simple sentence to somebody else.

basically the easiest question to say can do the most damage in the world. you feel betrayed, "but eventually you'll get over it." they say but you know you wont and it crushes your heart.

god i still cant get over the fact that he hurt me like that.
i cry for hours knowing that i cant have the boy who broke my heart, but i still manage to love him. it took me two weeks to fall for that boy, and god i fell hard.
It fucking hurts, it really does. I wanna scream and cry till i pass out like how i normally do. i strangle myself in my own thoughts and i loose control of my emotions and crash."

i stopped reading and stared at the wall. she wrote her feelings in a diary and the whole thing was filled out.
gosh so much feelings somebody can have.

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shortest chapter i've ever written omg